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Keeping a record...

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

This is just for me to keep a record of my old "Introduction Text" from my Spark Page. I'm making some changes, but didn't want to forget this one!

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"Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it." ~ Charles Swindoll

This seems to be where I'm at these days. We all have bad things and good things that happen to us. We all have circumstances that happen to us...and I truly believe these circumstances don't happen by chance. Whatever happens is destined to happen to us...it's how we deal with these circumstances that makes us who we are (or who we CAN be)!

I was a skinny child, and I was a nice-sized teenager. I got pregnant when I was 18, and decided that could be my "free-for-all" since I was, indeed, eating for two! I ended up gaining 48 pounds (and delivered a 2# 7 ounce baby!). At 181 pounds, I found myself pregnant three years later. I was very ill during that pregnancy, so in the end didn't end up with any weight gain. I was motivated to lose weight, and was able to drop to 148 pounds.

Over time I slowly started to gain weight, but four subsequent pregnancies over four years took me into the 200's for the first time. My health had still not been affected, and here and there I was able to lose weight, but never anything significant.

In 2007 I was pregnant again, this time topping out at a whopping 218 pounds. I was horrified that I had gotten that high, and found SparkPeople in 2008. It was then that I started to lose some serious weight, getting down to a low I hadn't seen in years - 190 pounds! For some reason, I left Spark for a year, and during that year I gained almost all of the weight back and was 210 pounds. It was then that I found out I was pregnant again.

But this time was different. I was very sick and couldn't exercise early on. The weight began to pile on. Eventually it was discovered that I had gestational diabetes. (Something I had never experienced before). My blood pressure became uncontrollable. I didn't feel well, I was tired, and could barely get to the bathroom without becoming short of breath. The baby was born, and I committed that THIS time was going to be it! I would not EVER feel like that again...I need to be here for my family!

In October 2010 I developed a blood clot that traveled to my lung. It was the single most horrifying thing that has ever happened to me, personally. I was in a dark place...but eventually decided that I have no control over whether I will live, or whether I will die. But I did know, that I didn't want to die in this body - that had inflated to a new all-time high of 235 pounds. I wanted to have energy...to lose weight...to be healthy...and to have the WILL to live, instead of sitting around and waiting for another blood clot to come along and take my life.

These day's, I'm down almost 17 pounds. I have a TON more energy, stamina, endurance, and strength. I take every day like the gift it is. I want to live the best life I can live, RIGHT NOW while I am here! I want to teach my children how to live their best lives as well. I need to stop making excuses, and put my nose to the grindstone and GIT 'ER DONE!

So, that's what I'm doing. I am involved in Spark so I don't lose my focus. Two of my girls want to run a 5 mile race with me this summer. We make plans to include activity now. We are eliminating processed foods one by one from our lives, and replacing them with healthy, whole alternatives. We're not all the way there yet, but PROGRESS, not perfection is what I aim for...and we are making progress!

Instead of allowing my circumstances to cause me to retreat, I am making the changes I need to! I am back to my happy, upbeat old self...and I do not plan for that to change ever again!
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