Tuesday, December 04, 2012
The last two days have been tough. Really the last couple of weeks have been rather stressful but I can't put my finger on the exact cause. I think it is a combination of many factors dogpiling on top of each other. On top of that I have been fighting an obnoxious bug. I almost wish I could have a few days of really sick sickness rather than deal with three weeks of blahness.
Last Saturday was a real kick in the rear for me in terms of my weightloss endeavors. I had to try on bridesmaid dresses for my little sister's wedding. I can't believe how I have let myself go. Sunday I was mentally formulating my plan and preparing myself. I didn't do terrible but I didn't log or anything. Yesterday I am proud to say that I ate right and well. I had a stressful incident at school and I didn't let that get in my way. I didn't stress eat. I wanted to. The thought crossed my mind even after I'd gone to bed. But I didn't give in. Today was the first morning that I have felt good and happy in a long time. Several weeks. It was weird and I don't know what caused the happiness but it was a light happy feeling. Weird. Until 10:30ish when my husband called me at work to say our son had fever and we (I) would have to get him. He also said that we couldn't take him back tomorrow since they have to be fever free for 24 hours before returning. Grrrr. So I arranged for a sub to come in for my afternoon classes and tomorrow, got my lessons ready, then hightailed it to daycare. He doesn't seem sick at all. Yes, he is a little warm but he's always warm in my opinion. We took him to the doctor in case it is his ears and everything, including the flu test came back with good results so it is just one of the millions of upper respiratory viral infections. Meaning that there is nothing that we can do about it but give it time. Tonight my son spent the evening running around yelling and playing. It kills me that I am using one of my 5 sick days when he doesn't even act sick. I am grateful for the time together but wish I could save the day for when he really NEEDED to be home. Oh well. It is part of being a mom I suppose. Anyways, through all of that today, I still didn't stress eat. I stayed within calorie range both days! I am so stressed that Monday morning I broke out in fever blisters, but I have managed to control my stress eating and that makes me so proud. I haven't gotten to exercise at all and that upsets me but I'll get to it. My husband was supposed to get home Monday so I could jog but he didn't make it before sunset. I had to quit my P31 classes because of money. Daycare increased our rates this week and p31 had to be sacrificed.
Here are my goals:
1. Stay in calorie range and log all food
2. Drink 6-8 cups of water per day
3. Workout 3 times per week
I hope that I can make progress through December. It is going to busy but hopefully the stress will settle. I don't know if I am going to weigh or not. I weighed and measured yesterday so I have a starting point. I can't decide whether to weigh weekly or at the end of the month. Ether way, I am going to give it my all.
I have this screen saver on my phone: "You can't control today's outcome but you can control your effort. PUSH THROUGH IT."
I will push through it.