Tuesday, December 04, 2012
Hubby is working long hours again - deadlines are looming as year end approaches. Many times I 'work' alongside him as eyes and inspiration for something that might help when I look at it differently from him. Then there are the nights when I have had a long day myself, have my own deadlines and also lost some sleep the night before - those are the evenings when I want to give in to the dark and cold, spend some time in the hot tub and then settle in for a heavy date with the fireplace, the TV and a blanket - trouble is ... then I miss him (heck he is only upstairs in the office) and am too tired to work alongside him so I end up turning to my other comforting friends - oh just one snack, I was so good today - hmm my mouth is hungry even though I know that my stomach is not really hungry ... now I am really craving another snack and I just have to finish the evening with some hot chocolate. Yes, I had a evening like that the other evening - last night I cycled in the freezing, dark evening to go and get a few things for mom from the grocery store - sure I earned that snack and wasn't even over calories or carbs - well not really anyhow. Last night I lost another couple of hours sleep and today my jeans are not feeling quite as comfortable as they were when I was so proud of myself at the end of summer - oh no, could I really be slipping back into the 'creep', getting out of the good habits that I taught myself for several months - those same habits that made me so happy and so proud.
Ok .. inspiration .. I know what I am going to do when I finally get away from this desk and computer - instead of giving in to what seems comforting - I am going to do just another 5 minutes on my exercise bike - who knows, I might feel like doing a few minutes more, or even (wait for it ...) the ironing??? Anything that I do will keep me occupied and have the double benefit of making me proud and not want to ruin the good that I have done this evening .. yes .. we CAN do this ..
I hope that my ramblings are food for thought.. We can survive the trials of treats .. of obstacle of the Christmas parties and meals .. if we can survive today .. after all, it is just one more day or creating and maintaining good habits .. yes, lets start with today and see how many days that leads us to.
Take care .. hang in there .. it really IS worth it