It's amazing how 5 pounds makes me feel.
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
As I started this journey, I was excited to see that weight falling off and the pictures that came with it. I felt great when I hit 200 and felt grand having lost 20% of myself.
I am still under the 20%, but just barely. I got all the way down to 176.4. I haven't see it since. I'm hovering around 180, as of this morning, I was back to 182. I know this is kinda maintenance mode as I have been hovering around the 180 for a couple of months now, not losing in the grand scale I was to begin with.
Under 180, I have little problem with my looks, or at least I don't feel as bad about it as I do above 180. Today I feel fat, even though I know I've lost nearly 50 pounds and haven't had a big weight gain since. There is still this belly hanging out all floppy and laughing at me.
I am not going to get back into the weight loss thing until after the holidays are over, as long as I can maintain until January, I can fell good about this journey. This last 30 pounds are just not going anywhere near as quickly as the first 50 went.
I'm feeling overwhelmed with this last holiday of the season, seeing that I get to see all the family that we visit or visits us this time around, even if I don't get along with them all that well.
The cold weather doesn't help either, as I haven't been taking my daily walks as far or as often as I normally do. I have plenty of other indoor things I can do, but I just don't get around to them. I know that I can do this and I will be right back to tracking everything and exercising as soon as I'm done with all this break from schedule.
I am still on my "break" from all the hard work it takes to keep on going in the right direction on the scale, but I'm not going to let the number rule my feelings. As soon as the turn of the year comes, I'm back on the losing journey again. I want to make sure I'm back to that 50 pounds lost number when my year comes up on January 10th.