Tuesday, December 04, 2012
So, I have not been on the blogging circuit since last year, but I need to vent, give thanks, and ask for advice to whoever may come across and read this blog of mine. I am struggleing in ending a relationship I have been in for 3 years. He is a great guy, but I am just over it. I am unhappy and feel unsatisfied. I have talked to him about it, but nothing ever changes. I feel like the relationship has run its course for me. I have changed as a person and realized the differences between us ( beliefs, values, I want kids and he doesnt, ect.). I want to break up with him, but how can I hurt him? He loves me, but I dont feel the same for him? Ugh..its so hard! My first relationship..the first guy to care about me, but I dont want to be with him anymore. How can I end it and be happy? Any suggestions would be nice. And should I do it before or after the holidays? Any similar stories?
I just want someone who makes my knees buckle everytime I think of him. Someone to motivate me and has ambitions and goals. Anyways...I just need to get my tunnel vision on and focus on grad school and getting in. Yikes! Deadlines are coming up! I also need to start shaking these 30 extra pounds I gained in the course of this relationship. All we do is eat, eat, eat! If I suggest a walk, he frowns and says hes tired..Every. Single.Time. When I am busy with my studies and cant see him, he gets sad and I feel an obligation to see him and put my studies aside. No more of that! I have to motivate myself if I cant be in a relationship with someone who can motivate me. I want a partner in (good) crime! As I come to the end of this random vent, my random readers will leave with these words: Motivate yourself!! You have to be there for you first in order to be there for others. Its not being selfish, its being the best you can be for yourself and others. Go and reach your goals today no matter how big or small...they are all magnificent just like you my beautiful Spark readers:)) Oh..and Happy Early Holidays!!!