This morning as I was on my way to work, I was crying intensely, telling my mother that I just couldn’t take the negativity anymore. What she said stopped me and my hysterics.

“You’ve got to let things go. You’re taking way too much on and you don’t have to. Do you want a lifetime of THIS?”

Do I want a lifetime of weeks of happiness and a month or more of sadness/depression/anger/frust
ration?

NO.

Life is not going to be teddy bears and unicorns, but I can certainly choose to find the positive in everything. Someone that does this excellently is BRITT831. Despite all of the hardships she’s faced these past 6 months, she still find reasons to smile, laugh and be giddy. I envy her in that.

Can we say new years resolution? Forget that, I’m starting NOW.

I’ve got to let past hurts go.

I’ve got to forgive those who I feel wronged me.

I’ve got to be able to allow myself to feel my feelings…and the main one is this:
IF I DON’T LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE.
This is a huge fear of mine, but I need to own up to it and FORGIVE myself if it doesn’t happen. This by no means is me saying that I’ve given up because I haven’t but if it doesn’t happen, I need to throw up the white flag until January 1st, 2013. I’ll need to maintain my weight loss and continue in my healthy lifestyle. Then once January rolls around, I’ll have an awesome goal to celebrate, hopefully bringing even more positivity my way.

IF I DON’T LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE. IF I DON’T LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE. IF I DON’T LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE. IF I DON’T LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE.