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A Lifetime Of This?


Tuesday, December 04, 2012

This morning as I was on my way to work, I was crying intensely, telling my mother that I just couldnít take the negativity anymore. What she said stopped me and my hysterics.

ďYouíve got to let things go. Youíre taking way too much on and you donít have to. Do you want a lifetime of THIS?Ē

Do I want a lifetime of weeks of happiness and a month or more of sadness/depression/anger/frust
ration?

NO.

Life is not going to be teddy bears and unicorns, but I can certainly choose to find the positive in everything. Someone that does this excellently is BRITT831. Despite all of the hardships sheís faced these past 6 months, she still find reasons to smile, laugh and be giddy. I envy her in that.

Can we say new years resolution? Forget that, Iím starting NOW.

Iíve got to let past hurts go.

Iíve got to forgive those who I feel wronged me.

Iíve got to be able to allow myself to feel my feelingsÖand the main one is this:
IF I DONíT LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE.
This is a huge fear of mine, but I need to own up to it and FORGIVE myself if it doesnít happen. This by no means is me saying that Iíve given up because I havenít but if it doesnít happen, I need to throw up the white flag until January 1st, 2013. Iíll need to maintain my weight loss and continue in my healthy lifestyle. Then once January rolls around, Iíll have an awesome goal to celebrate, hopefully bringing even more positivity my way.

IF I DONíT LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE. IF I DONíT LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE. IF I DONíT LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE. IF I DONíT LOSE 100LBS BY DECEMBER 23RD, 2012 I AM NOT A FAILURE.






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SUNSET09 12/5/2012 9:09AM

  If we don't experience failure,how can we be successful?!?! As my aunt put it to me., life isn't always peaches and cream and don't we know it. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back into the game of life. Look back on where you've come from. You, can do it! We are more than conquerors. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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STEVIEBEE569 12/5/2012 7:57AM

    I understand this blog all too well! This has been a frustrating year, but it doesn't have to end that way! Thank you for posting this blog and sharing the wisdom!

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Also, girlfriend, you are so not a failure! If you don't reach 100 pounds, remember you lost a significant amount of weight & that's a huge accomplishment!

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RUNNER4LYFE 12/5/2012 7:52AM

    Love the blog, babygirl! Once again, u said it perfectly!!! Just bc u dont meet certain goals doesnt make you a failure. Its easier said than done, I know, but PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT! U will get there, sweetheart, and I will stand by u every step of the way. emoticon I love you....
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FITWITHIN 12/4/2012 9:51PM

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FITGRL124 12/4/2012 8:46PM

    This blog must have been written for me. lol! I too tend to be like you and your Mom is right - we don't want to be that way.

You sound like someone that I would really like to get to know. I look forward to doing so!

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NESARIAN 12/4/2012 7:08PM

    Wise Momma and equally wise daughter.....

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JIGGILY 12/4/2012 6:27PM

    YOU ARE FANTASTIC AND ENCOURAGE OTHERS
YOU ARE WORTH IT
YOU GO MY FRIEND I WILL CHEER YOU ON
Big Hugs
Dee
xoxox
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ILOVEMALI 12/4/2012 4:14PM

  OMG. You are not a failure. You are an amazing success. Look at what you have accomplished professionally. Look at what you've accomplished with regard to your weight loss journey. Look at the lovely young woman in the mirror. Look at how much you mean to me, and to the rest of us, at SP.

You are an amazing woman. I am sending you hugs and positivity.

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WALLAHALLA 12/4/2012 3:40PM

    No one could accomplish as much as you have, and be a failure. You are a success in progress!

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ELAYNE39 12/4/2012 1:52PM

    Who you are is not your weight. You weigtht 12/23 date is just a goal. Goals are meant to encourage and cause reflection. It's not a do all, end all situation. It's not important how long it takes to lose the weight, just that you do. That means you keep working to figure out how this journey will work for you. Success is measure in the long term, not the short term. Life if complicated. We all make poor eating decisions from time to time. Learn from them and move on. You have to fail in order to succeed. You succeed by learning from your failures. If you learn from your failures, they are not really failures are they. You are on the right path. Don't sweat the minor stuff!

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SHERYLDS 12/4/2012 1:32PM

    the only way to heal
is to let go of past regrets, hurts, and guilt
so that you move forward today, towards
making the future the way you want it to be.

holding on to the past is the biggest thing that can stop you from reaching your goals

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NELLJONES 12/4/2012 1:06PM

    Why in the world would you base your happiness on what may or may not happen on December 23rd? What do you need to do TODAY to have a successful day?

Recovering alcoholics and drug addicts live One Day At A Time for a reason. Overeaters may not end up dead or in prison for a "slip", but isn't the life you are living just as much of a prison as the real thing? Just do TODAY. Yesterday is gone, you can deal with tomorrow when it gets here. Use all of your tools to live Today, enjoy Today! There isn't anything you can't do Just For Today. If you do that, then wherever you are on December 23rd is where God wants you to be.

Incidentally, your mother sounds like a pearl beyond price. Is there any way you can share her?

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VIXLADYFOX 12/4/2012 1:02PM

    Guuurl....you are FAR FROM A FAILURE!!! 93 pounds!!!! emoticon emoticon

If nothing else think of how many people you have inspired along your journey! I just found you and you have already inspired me!! THANK YOU!!!
That right there is a blessing, a gift that you are giving to the rest of us....as well as a gift to yourself.........I see no failure in that; no matter what that damn scale says come Dec 3!!! Don't let a number define how you FEEL!! You are doing the damn thing girl.....BE PROUD!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 12/4/2012 12:55PM

    You are SO NOT a failure! Regardless of what comes December 23, you've done an amazing job! Congrats!!!

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NEVERGIVEUP 12/4/2012 12:54PM

    Years ago, I had a wonderful Weight Watchers Leader, who called all the negative thoughts we have "stinkin' thinkin" She said we needed to learn to replace all those negative tapes we play in our head with positive ones. That is a lesson I've never forgotten, and it has helped me achieve (and continue to achieve) my weight loss goals.

Your blog reminded me of that. Thanks!



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MUNCHNIT 12/4/2012 12:49PM

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-AMANDA79- 12/4/2012 12:47PM

    Your ticker shows you've lost 93 lbs? I'm pretty sure that isn't failure!!

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