Tuesday, December 04, 2012
I always wonder why it is that when I am staring down that plate of cookies or that box of ice cream that I can never seem to resist. I stuff my face until they are gone and I justify it by saying that it will be the last time or I was keeping someone else from eating them. And when I'm done I feel bad, physically and mentally. I beat myself up over and over again and I can't seem to break that cycle. There are only so many times I can blame my mother or my childhood. The fact is that I am a grown woman and no matter what my emotional crutches are, I know better. I tell myself to suck it up and get over and do well for a couple days, until I pass that next plate of sweets. Then I think to myself that I just don't care, I want what I want, when I want it. I have a lack of motivation that squashes my desire to lose weight. How do you stay motivated?