Tuesday, December 04, 2012
I'll just do a fast update then get to why I'm writing this blog. Last week, regardless of horrible food choices and not exercising in the least little bit, I managed a 2.4 pound loss. I'll definitely take it with everything that's going on.
I've been making these poor choices due to stress. I've been emotionally eating out the wazoo and choosing to sleep my problems away instead of exercising. Neither of which are getting me anywhere and I know that. I've been doing good so far this week, though and I hope to continue the upward spiral I've started. Why am I so stressed, you might ask? Well, I'm 24, almost 25, and I am staring bankruptcy dead in the face. Why? Well, most of you know that I had a blood clot when I was 18 and was obviously very sick for about a year after that and the medical bills climbed and I was jobless and it all went to the worst collection agency in the state (at the very least. I'd say world. I'd rather have a pack of wild, vicious hounds on my @$$ than these guys) and it's been nothing but a living hell since. My bill with them is now almost $23000. It didn't use to always be that high, oh no. No, they've added about $2000 of interest a year. Are they a collection agency or a credit card company? My word! There's no way I'll be able to pay them off without paying $2-300 a month and I just can't do that no matter how many bills I can manage to pay off the "normal" way. There's no way. I'm drowning and I feel like I can't breathe with them in my life. So, I'm spending the day looking for bankruptcy lawyers trying to get things rolling before I get married because then things will get more complicated than they already are. So that is what's going on. I'm much more calm than I used to be. Granted I'm still stressed out, but somehow I have this calming feeling inside of me telling me that it's all going to be okay.