"Now put your hands up if you have nightmares
If you wouldn't man-up if there was a fight here
If you got dandruff, if you drink light beer
I'm out of breath (but)
I'm awesome, no, you're not, dude, don't lie
I'm awesome, I'm drivin' around in my mom's ride
I'm awesome, a quarter of my life gone by
And I met all my friends online
******* I'm awesome, I will run away from a brawl
I'm awesome, there's no voicemail, nobody called
I'm awesome, I can't afford to buy eight-balls
And I talk to myself on my Facebook wall
Yesterday's challenge was to write a paragraph praising myself. I pondered and thought, procrastinated and hedged, and could not for the life of me (yesterday) come up with anything that felt genuinely awesome. Anything that I had actually accomplished myself that made me feel proud.
I guess it was just a down day, huh?
I am proud of myself for showing up and finishing the Warrior Dash. I had a back injury and couldn't complete some of the obstacles, but it was *still* an up-hill 5k at a ski course and I DID do a majority of the obstacles - including wading through a mud pit and leaping over fire.
Of course, the people who were supposed to do it with me ditched me to do it by myself, and Jeff couldn't come watch because he was at work, and my parents who came to see me finish ended up in a huge embarrassing public fight because my dad didn't want to pay $6 for a beer and would rather go home to drink. I think he was there for about 20 minutes.
F'n deflated. Ruined the whole experience, more like. Yes, I am proud of myself for finishing, but every time I think of the Warrior Dash I remember what it feels like to be left behind by people that said they would be there for you and what it felt like to be humiliated by fighting parents. I need to find something else to be proud of that wholly my own.
- I take good care of my cats.
- I'm a good cook
- I'm generous to a fault
- I'm kind
- I'm strong - in the personality department.
- I'm persistent. For all the times I've given up, I'm still here.
- I aim to please
- I'm good at finding discounts