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Help .. Why is this so hard??

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

Yesterday started on a positive note. However, it didn't stay that way. Gloomy foggy day that seemed to match my mood when I got to work. Nothing seemed to go right. Missing stock,
computer errors..I could go on and on. The dampness makes my body ache more. I'm riding
an emotional roller coaster that doesn't want to stop. My depression is a major cause, but I'm sure other forces are at play also. Lack of appreciation at home & work doesn't help either. I
just want to run away. Why am I here ???

Goals results for 12/3

Keep a positive attitude: NO it didn't last & was unable to get it back
Exercise 10 minutes: YES Worked with weights
Eat Healthy: SOMEWHAT, but in the end Chocolate won!!
Make medication a priority: NO
Reduce clutter: NO
Practice gratitude: NO

I'm hoping that today will be better. No I'm not giving up, just looking for answers or suggestions
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ROSIEPD 12/4/2012 1:48PM

    Sometimes I read a post and think "We need to grab a drink together". Or maybe in this case a cool refreshing glass of water with a nice slice of lemon ;-). I felt much like you a few weeks ago - it was hormonal for me. Could not shake it. Add to that a myriad of frustrations at work, and it just whomps you. You did your exercise...that's good. Try to add two more things today...take your meds (no excuses) and practice gratitude - or just do something nice for someone, even if it is just to smile and say "have a great day". Be who you dream of becoming today...for you.

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RIBKNIT 12/4/2012 12:12PM

    Thanks for sharing. I deal with most of the same issues. One symptom of depression is that a positive attitude is next to impossible to maintain consistently, so don't put too much blame on yourself.
I have found that breaking things down into very small steps makes it easier. Also temporarily lowering my clutter standards.
I use a SAD (seasonal affective disorder) light and sit in front of it every morning.
About medication - you can get sick by stopping it cold turkey; I suggest either tapering off if you really don't want to take it, or setting the pills where you have to almost trip over them to make it easier.
Posting here is probably one of the best things you can do for yourself - congrats on doing it! emoticon

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    I know depression in of itself 'hurts' and the gloomy weather doesn't help I'm sure.

BUT - I know for sure that each and every day you can find something to be grateful for - and perhaps start a gratitude journal so that you can focus on those 'good' points - you will attract more.

Just take it one day at a time - yesterday is gone. When things go wrong as we know they sometimes do... we just have to keep plugging away and know that the BEST is yet to come!!

We're here to support you!!

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MIMIDOT 12/4/2012 8:21AM

    My only suggestion for you is to stick to your goal. Looks like you have a real good one listed. Hope today is better for you. Smile! Good luck!

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