Tuesday, December 04, 2012
So last night I ate myself sick.... Well almost... It was my last chewable meal for the next 4-6 weeks and it was good.
I went to dinner with my housemate, Elena, and she couldn't comprehend the concept of going on a liquid diet cold-turkey. She said if she were me than she would switch meals to a liquid diet until it wouldn't be a problem; to which I explained that if that we're a realistic option for me, then I would not be obese. It is easier for me to quit and suffer than to I think about changing. It is like the thinking causes anxiety and therefore makes me want to eat more when I can to make up for the times that I cannot.
The biggest thing I will miss? Milk....
So today is day one of the liquid diet and T-13 days till surgery. I am reviewing all of the paperwork and it has repeated a dozen times that 1 in 200 people die from this surgery. Then it lists all of the complications that can occur and it is humbling…. I get that this surgery will not guarantee weight loss and that it is up to me to make the life style changes but I guess it is getting real for me…. Six months ago I knew I was going to get surgery but now that I have a data it is a bit more real.
I have nine working day left before my two week hiatuses from work and 4 or 5 doctors’ appointments before then so I am going to attempt to not be incredibly moody