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My Biggest Challenge (A&I Wk 1 Silver Belles)

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

What has been my biggest challenge this year? Starting. I've struggled with my weight my entire life. I've always been on the heavy side. I've tried every fad diet under the sun and then some. It's been a horrible roller coaster of lose some, gain more, lose some, gain more until I was finally pushing 300 pounds. I can't tell you exactly what clicked but one day I woke up and decided "that's it. It's time." I joined a gym and started watching what I ate. The first 10 pounds melted off like butter. The rest, not so easy. Once my body had that initial burst, it slowed down to 1-2 pounds per week (and some weeks, none at all). It's been a constant battle with myself to stick to this.

There have been many nights I've gotten off work and the last thing I want to do is go to the gym. But you know what? I've went. I've even went some nights I haven't had to work. I started off walking on the treadmill at 2 mph and thinking I was going to die. I'm up to between 3.8 and 4.2 mph now. The elliptical? The first night I got on it I lasted about 2 minutes, again fearing death. Now it's my favorite thing to do and I typically go between 35 and 45 minutes.

Food is another challenge. I love food. LOVE it. I was raised by a mom that was an amazing cook. My grandparents owned a restaurant. Food was love. I'm also an emotional eater so food was comfort. I still have a hard time staring down food and walking away. I don't always. I've learned portion control. I'm still working on eating more good calories and less bad calories.

Everyday is a challenge. Some days I embrace it and accept it and some days I fight it every step of the way. But you know what? I'm becoming a better person for it. A healthier person. A happier person. I no longer worry if I'm the biggest person in the room. I don't fear my chair breaking or not fitting onto a ride at the amusement park. I can buy clothes at normal stores now, not specialty shops at the mall that carry extended plus sizes.

Don't get me wrong, I have a long, long ways to go. But I'm getting there. Everyday, I'm getting closer.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
LUVLYLORELEI 12/5/2012 12:53AM

    Sounds like you're doing an awesome job! Inspiring!

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CATHYGETSFIT 12/4/2012 8:58PM

    emoticon You are making great progress! You are determined and that's what matters most. Just remember that this isn't a race to the finish line! It doesn't matter how long it takes. You are doing great! Keep up the great work! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon


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JAMARIGOLD 12/4/2012 5:06PM

    What an great post! You have really gotten with a program and continue to make progress. That's awesome! Every day, one foot in front of the other. Good for you!

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RISINGSUN2013 12/4/2012 3:49PM

    I loved this post! I really relate to it. You've come a very long way and you're completely inspiring me!

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RFJSJ50 12/4/2012 1:19PM

    You are definitely making progress, both mentally and physically. Your determination inspires and motivates me to push myself further and do more on a daily basis.
Stay positive and determined!

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TURTLESLOW14 12/4/2012 9:47AM

    You are doing a wonderful job. You have taken hold and are doing what you can and you will succeed. I LOVE food too, so I know just how important portion control is. You will do just wonderful the coming year

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