Monday, December 03, 2012
I am excited to begin sharing my journey about creating a new mindset.
Everything begins with a thought.
I have struggled for many years with fluctuating my weight up and down. The weight gain would be between 5-10 pounds, before I would do something about it. A few times it was up to 23 pounds over.
Even though my threshold may be lower than some, it doesn't change the fact that it still a vicious cycle. Now that I understand better than ever before how it is a matter of changing my mindset in order to stop this cycle. I have determined to begin here and now.
My commitment to myself is to release the last 8 pounds to get to my ideal weight and then keep it off consistently. Oh, I am not going to fret over a couple of pounds. Actually, I am going to stop fretting altogether, since what you focus on expands.
Healing the mind through a holistic approach means that i take 100% responsibility for what I have created in the past. I am not a victim and I choose to empower myself to create a new mindset that allows me to stand strong against the temptation to sabotage my success.
FIrst, here are my updates regarding the external stuff.
Today I realized how little food it takes to really fill me up when I tune into my body and stop eating when I "think" I am full.
One of my struggles has been that I eat too fast and thus eat to much. I also tend to eat food when I want to comfort myself. Ice Cream is a big comfort food for me.
I have stagnated at the same weight for a few weeks, because I was going over my calorie goals each day, so I was eating more of a maintenance diet. It's okay though, I had already determined back before I released my first 5 pounds that I was going to lose it once and for all and so if it meant going slower to be steady, so be it. It's is so freeing to take the pressure off myself to get to my goal fast. After all, I am after a changed mindset and the side benefit is the weight loss.
I did notice I tended to eat a bit too fast today and not chew my food thoroughly enough.
I don't worry so much about how often I eat, but instead I am focused on stopping when I "think" I am full". It is an important distinction to make between, when I am full and when I "think" I am full.
I also haven't been laying down my food or my utensil between bites.
I love my new fitbit tracker and am getting the hang of using it and syncing it to Spark People. I have exceeded my goal every day, so far.
I did a 5 Mile Advanced Walk dvd with Leslie Sansone. I love getting in shape and feeling strong and healthy.
Now on to the deeper issues. The matter of mindset.
It starts with thinking and talking to myself like I would my best friend. No more demeaning comments about myself or my body. This is the challenging part. I have learned to tune in to my thoughts and feelings more and this is the most important part of changing my mindset from a negative one based on guilt to a positive one, based on love. Common thoughts have been, "You are so stupid.", "How could you do such a thing?", "Of course!"
I meditate every day and this has done wonders to slow down my mind so I can tune in to my thoughts and feelings. Btw, I became a master at avoiding my feelings. Stuffing feelings leads to pain and sickness.
Another huge part of this releasing the old thoughts and in with the new, is forgiving myself. Along with this is the part where I don't judge my brother or sister. I have become very aware that i criticize in others what I don't like in myself. This is extremely destructive. I do see the truth in the belief that I can't love others if I don't love myself first. The key to forgiveness has been in noticing what I judge in others is a reflection of my own fears. In this way, my brothers and sisters are my teachers.
As I focus on healing these perceptions that no longer serve me I am embracing my full God-given potential instead. The outer will reflect the inner.
I am grateful for my life and for Spark People!
It is getting late and I am about to fall asleep keyboarding, so I going to wrap it up for now.
I look forward to sharing my journey as I change my mindset about myself.