Monday, December 03, 2012
I am so sore from yesterday’s workout, and I guess I chalk up my small weight gain to water retention? Maybe muscle? I don’t know, but it’s ok. I know I did everything right yesterday, so there is no reason for feeling bad.
Today has been an interesting day. I have had a “bad food” day. Let me explain. I have not eaten anything too high in calories nor have I gone over my calorie allowance for the day. I have just been wanting different foods (JUNK!!!), and I guess this is when my will is tested. I love when I feed my body and not my emotions, and I had a really good week of doing that, but today, after a few days of major depression, I just want to calm these feelings.
Now, because I have been having these thoughts, I’m feeling as though I have done something wrong. I feel guilty. I assume that has to do with all the years of beating myself up for the things I was doing to my body and not DOING for my body. It’s another habit I’m going to have to learn to give up. I have no reason to be feeling as though I did something wrong. Even if I had, I am not perfect, and forgiveness of self is how we keep living a positive life.