I blogged just over a week ago, and what a week it has been since then!
I started Day #1 of a 28-day work streak – consisting of my two regular jobs that total 50-60 hours per week and adding five hours on Saturday and three hours on Sunday taking pictures of children and pets with Santa at our local mall.
Work Monday through Friday went well – accomplished a lot at both jobs, kept up with the regular household chores and was able to spend some quality time with my youngest son. Saturday was quiet at the mall which I believe was in part to the foggy, damp weather (which in Minnesota can mean icy road conditions). The time dragged and I was pretty tired by the time I left, but still needed to pick up a few groceries and other supplies before going home. A simple supper for my son and me, a nap, a little TV and computer, a couple phone conversations and it was off to bed. Sunday was a bit busier but then Santa and I did have the football game to keep us occupied. Like me, he is a Vikings fan so we were not too happy with the outcome of the game. My son came with me and afterwards we went out to eat, stopped to buy him a video game, finished decorating my office and the lobby area at one of my offices and once again crashed when I got home.
Last week I received some bad news about two friends who have been battling cancer (I wrote about them last year). The first one, Ellen, had been told she was cancer-free at her last 3-month checkup, and then last week was informed that it was back in several locations and they started chemotherapy immediately. As of today, we still don’t know how far it has spread and are waiting to be updated. Then on Thursday I received a text from the other friend, Pam, letting me know that she was at the Mayo Clinic and was going in for surgery the next morning to have an abscess in her brain removed and a biopsy to follow. The results will be in tomorrow. There is a possibility it is an infection which will require a month at home on an antibiotic IV. If cancer is spotted, doctors will determine the best course of action. Her husband also told me that one of the tumors in her lung has grown a little. This will not be addressed until a determination is made on the brain issue. In the past six months I have lost my Godmother, my dad, and my parents’ best friends (who have been in my life longer than I can remember). The thought that I could lose one or both of these friends was something I just couldn’t wrap my thoughts around and I about crumbled.
I called the man I have discussed in my past few blogs, who comforted me as much as could over the phone; and then called my mom. A soon as a hung up from talking with my mom, the phone rang and it was my Spark Friend Judi. Her call couldn’t have come at a better time and I am so grateful for that call. Talk about knowing when you are needed.
Other news is that the man and I have decided that it is best for us to be friends. There always seemed to be a little something missing although we couldn’t quite put a finger on what it was. I am beginning to believe that it is because he wants a woman who will be dependent on him and who he can take care (or one that needs saving). I am definitely not that woman. I like having a man in my life but have always been an independent soul. I do believe that he was brought into my life for a very important reason, and that was to get through the initial stages of the loss of my dad. I had been trying to hold up everyone around me and needed somewhere to decompress. That place was with him, where I could be pampered and be able to let out my emotions. We still do a lot of chatting online, have very long phone conversations and are now giving each other dating advice. He will always be an important part of my life and I will always be grateful that he was brought into it.
I have gone out to dinner with another man and we are planning on another date soon. He lives closer to me and plans on sticking around the area for a long time to come. We are taking it slow, taking time to get to know each other through phone conversations and will be spending more time together – just the two of us. A big part of this is the fact that he is raising his two grandsons, who have traveled a rough road. We don’t want to introduce another person into their lives unless we know there is a chance I will be there for a long time. They have experienced too much loss in their lives and need to be given top priority. I have seen people rush into a relationship where children are involved, the children get attached and when the relationship doesn’t work, they are left broken-hearted. I won’t do this to two young boys (ages 10 and 12). I also need to take things slow for myself and my youngest son, who is with me every other week. My sons, thankfully, have had a much better go of things in their lives and I am so grateful for that.
Boy this dating thing is something – full of fun and anxiety all at the same time.
I am asking that anyone who reads this please pray for Ellen, Pam and all who are battling cancer.