Monday, December 03, 2012
It's been an interesting week. Started out well, then as the week progressed, I supposed I came to realize I was running the biggest race of my life in 2 weeks and the anxiety symptoms started again. So I've been doing some "mind" exercises I've learned to help me. "It's just a race" I want to tell myself, but the answer is "But you want to qualify for Boston" and the battle continues. Anyway, I'm still moving on and working to keep everything in perspective. From a realistic point of view, I totally know it's okay whether or not I qualify for Boston at this race. I won't beat myself up if I don't and am proud that I'm going to just do my best. It's my darn competitive side that's messing me up lol. But this too shall pass. Honestly looking forward to getting this race over with.
On another note, yesterday I ran my 21st Half Marathon. I had a 16 mile training run to do, so I ran a local Half, went through the finish line, got my medal, stopped for a quick sec to pee, then off I went to do the other 2.9 miles. Tucked my medal in my sports bra. Enjoyed the race, though it had a pretty long and steep overpass that I went over four times, so that was some good hill training.
Also, yesterday marked four years since my "Aha!" moment when I changed my lifestyle. Four years ago, I was on a cruise, ran into someone I hadn't seen in a couple years and she said she almost didn't recognized me because I'd gained so much weight. Right there on the cruise I changed. Got home and signed up for my first race in 13 years and haven't stopped since!
Here's a pic from Dec. 2, 2008 on the cruise, and Dec. 2, 2012 after my race yesterday.