Monday, December 03, 2012
WOW it's been over a month since I blogged? I did hit a bad patch when things just were not coming together and then I got sick. To be honest I think I was ill for a while, my stomach just wasn't right at all and finally at the beginning of Thanksgiving Week I got sick as a dog. I ended up in hospital Thanksgiving evening and I had lost 12 lbs in 4 days!
So there was the illness and also our Fall break at the ballet school so nothing to report on the ballet front.
Now you will see that I have lost almost 20 lbs and today is the day to go back to ballet school. I have also missed swimming and I am due to go back there tomorrow.. it sucks that I will have to build up on both again but stuff happens and that is just how it is.
I did have an email from Brittany saying that she and her husband, the Artistic Director of the company wanted to have a meeting with me to discuss my goals within the school, she said it is to make sure that everbody is happy.. I am really nervous about this meeting as I have no idea what they are going to say. I DO think I am fairly realistic about what I can accomplish at the moment and in the future given my weight and age.
I went to see the Nutcracker yesterday and apart from the character parts everyone was SO young! Leah from my class was outstanding in a character part and just commanded the stage, she was wonderful. Brittany's performance as the Sugar Plum Fairy brought tears to my eyes.. but where do I fit in? I don't want to do just character.. I want to dance.. but how can I dance with so many much younger and more talented dancers? That I just don't know.. unless they plan to give the adult division more to do. I KNOW I won't ever be a Prima Ballerina, but I DO want to be the best I can personally be and have the chance to show it if I am good enough. I am really worried this interview might end up crushing my dreams. I just don't know.
We are due back in class tonight and I will be having this interview soon.. please keep everything crossed for me.