Need to Make Some Changes
Sunday, December 02, 2012
My accountability for the last two days have been good. I have gotten in exercise both days. Today, I did Leslie Sansone's 4 mile walk and Walk it Out. My nutrition has been pretty good. Not outstanding, but not horrible. I have been working straight through without a day off.
Herein lies the rub. I need to change that. I finally said no to a buyer who wanted to go only on Friday nights. I finally decided that we do not work Friday nights. I have always felt guilty about leaving my teaching job and felt that I wasn't entitled to a day off because of the income we lost. Brian always reminds me of the money I made. I don't think he does it on purpose. It is just him. Right now, I am pretty close to earning what I netted as a teacher, but I am really running myself down. I am mentally exhausted. I am trying to keep all the pieces together for everyone and feel like I should never ignore a call, but I am afraid that it is starting to hurt my health.
I think my ulcers are flaring up. I can see signs of the colitis. I know I need to up the colitis medication by one pill a day. That should take care of it as long as I start taking care of myself. I love my husband dearly, but he is very good at making one feel guilty. As he points out, he is working two jobs as he does all of the showings with me. Yet, when we went to the doctor, I ended up on blood pressure meds and his blood pressure was 116/60.
He always says that I don't give him credit for doing anything. That is not the case. I do give him credit. Yes, the guy knows his houses, but he never worries about anything or takes it upon himself to deal with anything as he knows I will do it. When we met with my son's DVR counselor, he made one statement for the entire 1.5 hours we were there. When we met with my son's psychiatrist, she asked him one question, and he couldn't answer it. I think I am worn out. I know I need a vacation, but we can't afford it. We finally started putting money back on the equity line for our home. We are finally getting ahead. I just don't know how long I can keep up this pace.
Once, again, you are all wonderful and thank you for listening. I am really hoping to have a day real estate free tomorrow, but I don't see it happening realistically. I will do my best to keep it to a minimum.