Sunday, December 02, 2012
Today I went to Weight Watchers to weigh in and see what their new program holds. The report is that there is no change. They are still hanging on the points plus program which encourages fruit as the way to satisfy hunger when your points are all used up.
I went through the new book to compare it with the old book and there was pretty much no change. They are introducing more emphasis on daily habits like eating breakfast, putting your fork down between bites, but nothing substantive that will help the hard case. No suggestion that the hard cases need to eat less without being made to feel like mavericks.
I was surprised in looking over both the old and the new books to see that Weight Watchers has a whole section promoting their dumb Weight Watcher foods. It is so obvious that they are doing everything they can to exploit the fat person. In my case, I guess I was the perfect victim. I had 90 pounds to lose and it took me 8 painful years to lose 60 pounds.
December 8, 2012. Tomorrow is my regular weigh in day but I'm afraid to go to Weight Watchers because if I haven't lost weight since I started SparkPeople they will get the moral advantage. We'll see what happens.
December 27, 2012. Gad! Looks like I zigged when I shuda zagged. Another weight gain at Weight Watchers and no mystery to it: I've been eating my brains out. It's gonna be really hard to turn this barge around. Truthfully, thanks to the folly of Weight Watchers, my barge had already turned around while I was diligently doing Weight Watchers to a "T" and I didn't understand that when I came to SparkPeople I was going to have to make a drastic change which I was gonna resist.
But I did it. The first couple of weeks with SparkPeople I cut down on the calories by 30% and I lost weight.
Problem is, I rebelled against the loss of food. I thought that because I had found out what I was doing wrong, the rest would be easy. Ohnononononon! A Huuuuuuge part of me does not want to give up its food. So now I have to confront the monster.
The only good part is that I finally found out the problem. Now we shall see if I can find the solution.
So here is my plan. I am going to embrace both Weight Watchers for the human contact and use SparkPeople as my calorie guide. I need both programs together to gauge my fitness. Weight Watchers' ActiveLink gives me the minutes I walk and SparkPeople gives me the miles. Both together give me the calories burned.
December 28, 2012. I went to Weight Watchers last night. I got a lot of help from the leader who was not the one who seems to be stalking me and demanding that I lose weight without cutting back on calories. The bad leader puts me in a double bind. I have been avoiding her for years but she controls my local Weight Watchers. So last night I went to a meeting farther away and it was really a great leader and a great meeting. The problem was that I had gained weight. Thanks to SparkPeople this is no mystery. I have been eating too much food, therefore I gained weight. No mystery. Thank God I got away from the magical thinkers in Weight Watchers.
January 16, 2013. I found a leader who is as afflicted as I am. I had a great time.
May 8, 2015. They got rid of the leader i liked so much. They are trending toward women who don't have real weight problems.
There is one leader I really have to stay away. I'll call her Sarah. I carefully monitor Sarah's meetings so that I will not run into her. Today I made a mistake and went to one of her meetings. In the middle of the meeting there was a terrible sound that came from the ceiling. it was a workman working with an electric tool of some kind and it sounded just like a bodily sound like a grumbling stomach or worse but very very loud. Everyone laughed. I was too pissed off about being there to laugh but it kept happening and it happened always when Sarah was about to make a serious point. It kept happening and happening. I started to laugh with the others. Then I throught, "It must be my avenging spirit getting even with Sarah for all the indignities she has afflicted me with, most notably, she checked me into one of her meetings when I wasn't there to beef up her numbers. It just so happened that I was not able to celebrate my goal which took me ten years because Sarah had done that.
Well, when I saw her today she was pretty fat, so that was okay, but not enough to make up for the fact that she always treats me like a child and hugs me and tells me she loves me which she obviously does not. Somewhere along the line she learned that if she meets somebody she has an aversion to and she tells them she loves them, that's supposed to make it okay.
So that was it. My avenging spirit set her up for total humiliating and I have carefully marked all of her meetings so that we will not meet again.
The real reason I don't like Sarah is that she has sabotaged my weight loss. She was very insistent that Weight Watchers encourages us to eat as much fruit as we want to. I knew it couldn't be right so I researched the materials and I showed Sarah where it said that if we found ourselves eating too much fruit some of us might need to count the points in the fruit. That was the first time she let me know she was mad at me by telling me she loved me. Well anyway .... and then recently she made a point out of arguing that potatoes are perfectly fine to eat.
Well, I have short, lazy and old. I can't eat as much as other people, nowhere near as much as I could eat when I was young. I have to watch every calorie. So I just feel that she does not allow me to recognize myself as a hard case and to made proper adjustments which is one reason it has taken me 11 years to lose 75 pounds, every day as hard as the day before.
It just makes me mad that it is so hard and all I get for my effort is criticism for being a negative person as if there were no difference between different people with different kinds of weight problems. Mine is a hard one. The ones who have it easy should not be allowed to beat up the hard cases.