Sunday, December 02, 2012
As a young person most people described me as incredibly competitive. Indeed as a child if I did not surpass all my peers in anything and everything then I saw my efforts as abysmal failures. As an older person though I am trying to learn personal competitiveness with the primary focus of being the best me. Silly as it might seem, my greatest failure in life remains the complete inability to just be me and concern myself with being the best me. I am really trying to make huge strides in my life right now but I am so frustrated it's taking so long to mature into a grander, more refined version of this author. I feel lazy but I wonder if this is just something I need to experience on my journey.
One day I certainly hope to learn how to compete with the lady in the mirror and no one else. That lacking enlightenment is what truly holds me back.