Saturday, December 01, 2012
I did not make my goal. I lost 6 pounds and that is WONDERFUL. I was at 298 yesterday morning and today was back up to 303. I was SURE I would go under that magic number this month. ARGGGGHHHH. I feel like the scale is just plain MOCKING me.
In spite of the scale's taunting, I was in a good mood today when I started off. Breakfast at church was nice. I decided to use my Subway card and get lunch - I was going to get a sandwich for me and for Ed and then, because the meatball subs were $2.00 for a 6 inch, I got lunch for my stepmother, stepbrother, and step-grandson. I brought Ed's home and was so pleased that I got all the side stuff he loves, pickles, spinach, hot peppers, etc. I don't like meatballs so I got a different one for me. I got home and told Ed I got him the meatball sub and accidentally gave him the wrong one. I immediately realized it and started to switch - he had already put all the NASTY crap on MY sandwich so guess who didn't get any lunch. He was really apologetic and I was not MAD AT HIM, BUT I was VERY disappointed. I was also annoyed enough that I ended up eating a grapefruit (another HAPPY story - bought some today - got home and the one I chose was ROTTEN). I was ready to throw in the towel.
I survived. I did not binge. I DID whine. I am STILL whining. Nobody wants to hear that nonsense, so I am going to go to bed. Good night - watch TOMORROW when my weight won't count, I will probably weigh 290 or something equally ridiculous.