Saturday, December 01, 2012
So, I've made it through a great day without going over my nutrition goals. I feel good and I know that if I drink some water and go to sleep, that I'll wake up feeling GREAT tomorrow morning.
I also know that I could realistically spare a few more calories and not be too far off course. I know that the cornerstore has some delicious treats that are begging for my attention. I know that I would have enough self-control and would be able to walk in there and just buy maaaybe a small pack or two of candy ...or perhaps a tiny bag of chips ...possibly some light beer ...maybe some ice cream. No matter what, I know I can control myself ...but why?
Why is it, that even though I've made it through an amazing day and am hours away from a vibrant wake-up, I still feel those same old "fat girl urges" that will ultimately have me racking up about 50 dollars worth of junk, only to inhale it all tonight and wake up puffy-faced tomorrow morning? What is it about this time of night that makes me want to throw caution [and reason] to the wind?
Who knows ...but what I CAN tell you, is that I am incredibly thankful in this moment for Sparkpeople.com and for the ability to vent via blog, as opposed to trying to battle my cravings in the middle of the corner store aisles.
So, now that I am nearing the end of this letter of assurance to myself, I will wrap it neatly with a promise bow ...a promise to NOT undermine my own success. Maybe I will falter in the coming days, weeks or months ...but not today. I am in control of these 24 hours ...and one thing I've learned is: You can do ANYTHING for 24 hours. For these 24 hours, I will be a fitness goddess ...a snob that is too good for late night binges.