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Just let me be me....

Saturday, December 01, 2012

today is R&R day for me. LOVE IT!! I do have energy but I know if I do one today come next week I will feel like a slug so I will behave myself and have an R&R day. And its my cheat day (1 meeal only) and I am having pizza
and apple crisp with a bit of frozen vanilla yogurt !!

I just realized something the other day...I realized that I was feeling out of control of my own see my mother lives with me and for years before she had moved in I was highlighting my hair a platinum blonde...but when mom moved in she told me she didn't like the color and it didn't suit my I tried to change to save a spat as I really don't like fighting with my just doesn't feel right but every time I tried a different color it always had a red tinge to it..and I really didn't like it...but she I lived with it for over 2 years trying to make her happy..everyone else asked what I did to my hair that they liked it beter the other color but I wanted mom just last week I had to die it again as my blonde mousey roots were showing and I thought enough! I want my own color hair back! ( this was after my nephew had asked me " auntie do you like having orange hair? I liked it better blonde"....but I told him mom liked it better the color it was and he said to that"auntie what do you think of your hair? You should do it for yourself and nobody else..not even grandma" You know he is right!) so I bought a highlight frost box and my sister did it for me (she always did it in the past and it was never orange...twice I had gone to a hairddreser and both times it turned orange so when I do get it frosted it comes out of the box and my sister does it!)and I felt like myself for the first time in 2 years! And you know what? After I made myself happy and quit worrying about what mom would think about my hair...I felt like myself!! and with this feeling I seemed to have gotten control of who I am! And that person is strong and in control!!!! It seems that it is easier for me to say no to bad foods now...silly I know but maybe thats all it was....I just needed to be me again and not just my mom's daughter!

Just let me be me!
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    Good for you! Sometimes we do lose ourselves when we try to please others!
    1930 days ago
  • BOVEY63
    Hope you enjoyed your R&R Day!
    Glad you made YOUR choice on your hair color.
    1930 days ago
    That was a big step, and I'm proud of you! emoticon

    1931 days ago
    Good choice to color ur hair back. The opinion that matters most is from the last person u see each day...You staring back at u in the mirror. Your awesome chick, and ur nephew is a smarty...I love love the abs pic at the end of ur blog
    1931 days ago
  • LINDA!
    I am happy that you decided to dye your hair to suit yourself. I know that it always makes me feel better to have new hair color and maybe a new hairstyle.
    1931 days ago
  • DS9KIE
    yum pizza

    boy your nephew is smart,some times I think kids are smarter than us adults. And seems like moms are always messing things up like baking and hair

    well you had a great day rest and pizza
    1931 days ago
    Good for you for doing what makes YOU happy and comfy in your own skin :) Glad you're feeling more like yourself and in control ... it's a good 'place' to be :)
    1931 days ago
    Your nephew was so right! Good to have a day to relax too!
    1931 days ago
  • BERRY4
    It IS a challenge to know what battles to fight and which ones really DO make a difference in our perception(s).

    I'm glad you were able to step out and do what makes YOU happy. Besides, it is the body YOU live in, eh!?!
    Enjoy your rest day AND your weekend! emoticon
    1931 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon on taking back your life and doing what makes YOU happy. You should always be your number one priority!!!
    Blessings and hugs,
    1931 days ago
    That is awesome, I am glad you did it for yourself. You should be you and not what anyone else wants you to be. Hugs. Enjoy you R&R.
    1931 days ago
    Making ourselves happy should be number 1.
    1931 days ago
    emoticon girl! You take YOUR life back. Isn't it funny that well into our adulthood, their approval is still so important to us but when it means giving ourselves away, that's where a line needs to be drawn. Congrats and welcome back (to your hair I mean emoticon )
    1931 days ago
    Family tend to have terrible taste in hair color. My family hate my black, but I love it and do it anyway. Congrats on standing up to your mom and doing your own thing!

    1931 days ago
  • CAROL494
    1931 days ago
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