Focus vs. Stress: Thoughts
Saturday, December 01, 2012
It's been too long since my last post. But since today is the first day of the month again and I have committed to not only weighing in, but to taking body measurements on the first day of each month, I decide if there are any thoughts worthy of a first of the month blog. This month I have some thoughts.
Since my lowest weight a few months ago I've gained almost 10 pounds. Due to the cleanse for my first anniversary colonoscopy since my cancer surgery last year, I'm back to only 5 pounds up. It's time to evaluate how that came to be when I made lifestyle choices to lose that first 50 pounds in less than a year and it seemed easy.
First thought: I don't expect my grandkids to want to eat as healthy as I do, so I added back to our household some very tempting treats while they spent most of the summer with us. Since nothing is forbidden to me, I tasted a few, but allowed the taste to become a regular habit again. Again filling my body with the desire for "sugar"! I must re-think that first thought. They need to be healthy too!
Second thought: My husband had surgery a week before the grandkids went back to their parents'. Even though we have both been losing weight and exercising more, since he was home all the time, I didn't leave him home alone to go to the gym. We didn't go together either for fear of doing anything that may overexert his restrictions before the therapist allowed him to. Again, exercising lost status as a habit. I must re-think that second thought. He was strength training daily through physical therapy!
Third thought: This one I didn't realize until yesterday. My first anniversary colonoscopy was nerve wracking. I didn't realize how nervous I was about that test until it was over and the doctor was smiling and telling me my colon "looked wonderful" - if that is possible. I had even been ignoring the need to make an appointment with my physician for my annual physical workup, as important as that is, especially after a cancer scare. Now that stress is missing and I recognize how big it was. I need to complete my annual physical exams now instead of waiting to see what only one portion reports. I must re-think how to acknowledge my stress level. Hmmm, it seems I tend to ignore things I don't want to face.
Today's thought: I feel strong and healthy and re-motivated to re-start habits that I was truly enjoying and that made me feel so much better and stronger (and refreshed the size and look of my wardrobe regularly). I can already feel the energy returning to my body since my cleanse washed out so much of the "junk" I had been allowing too often. I really enjoyed eating lots of vegetables yesterday after I was allowed to eat again. These last 5 pounds of weight gain will not last long. They were caused by stress I recognized as events. Now I know better. I must re-think what I am doing, or even more, not doing. Any suggestions here?
Thoughts for this month: I have lost weight through the holidays a couple times and never felt deprived (mostly because I didn't deprive myself). I anticipate continuing in that manner, simply because I have learned that a sliver of a piece of 3 different pies turns out to be the size of one slice. The enjoyment of the pie is the taste, not the completion. Taking small bites and savoring them make my slice of pie at the family dinner take longer to eat than most who gobble up the yummy stuff and it's gone. Turkey and ham are not high in fat or calories as long as you stay with the leaner versions. (I don't like fat to begin with so that part is easy.) A small piece of the corn pudding beside a baked sweet potato without the cinnamon and sugar doesn't throw the meal off the charts. I enjoy the fresh veggies and the fresh fruits and keep the processed recipes to treat status. It works for me. It's easier to prepare the healthier foods when you know that several other family members are also watching their weight. They also appreciate not being deprived of good things. This sounds like a plan, now to get the exercise back to working status! I won't complain too loudly if you want to hold me accountable on that.
My new goal is to begin the new year back to where I stopped progressing or maybe progressing again below that point and in need of a new wardrobe. Hmmm, maybe that's what I need to ask for for Christmas - the next size smaller clothes! I like that thought!
Have a wonderful December and holiday season! Stay healthy and happy!