In keeping with my status for November…” SPEEDY143 welcomed NOvember with No excuses, No regrets… a new month, new chapter, new page, new wishes, new ME!!!!”
I've been half way to goal for almost a year now, blew my mind when I went back and looked at my weight chart. In the interim I've gained and lost the same 5-6 pounds monthly... by mid summer I was up 10 pounds. I knew from experience where this was going. So I got back to basics and whittled it back down to those 5 to 6 pounds that just don’t seem to want to come off.
My nemesis has become my weight tracker. I was so pleased to reach 253.3 I recorded it. Honestly I think I weighed that for all of 10 minutes on December 10, 2011, because I haven’t been below 255 since then…. but there my ticker sits.... mocking me FOR ALMOST A YEAR NOW *ouch* I some times feel like a liar and a sham, yet I let it roost mid-page for everyone to see……
Many times I sit and stare at “My-Ticker” and think about all the things I could put up there instead.
100 Days until…. Whatever?!?
X number of exercise minutes completed for the month of...
SparkPoints Level 18 60,000 - 79,999 points
Busting Bad Habits.
Inches Lost… blah, blah, blah
The reality is I want to lose more weight so the weight ticker stands, stuck in time, in hopes that it will once again move towards my goal because there’s no way in Hell I’m going to raise it to reflect what I really weigh.
Then it dawned on me one day when I was reading those inspiring Sparkpeople’s blogs who’ve reached their goals and are maintaining. “Hey, I’ve been maintaining my 70 pound weight loss for a year now and you know what??? That’s awesome!!!!”
A couple days after Thanksgiving I dreamed I had gained all my weight back… some of my Sparkfriends corrected me and said that’s no dream, that’s a nightmare!!! In the dream I remember looking down at my legs and seeing the extra weight. Actually I wasn’t surprised. But I did think OK I can take this off again, time to get started. When I awoke it was such a pleasure to find that I’m still the new me… what a wake-up call to realize I haven’t failed. I’m still on this wonderful Sparkpeople journey. And this year I’ve proven to myself I can maintain a 70 pound weight loss without dieting and very little exercise…. A pox on you chronic back, knee & hip pain!!!! I’ve maintained because my eating habits have changed drastically thanks to Sparkpeople and I rarely think about what I’m doing… I just do it. Good habits have taken over the old bad habits… I think differently about food and rewarding myself. It didn’t happen over night. It took a long time and now I am benefiting from all those articles and blogs and videos and trivia questions. From logging on every day and using the nutrition tracker. From the 12 glasses of water I drink daily to walking with purpose on those less painful days. I may not have been a looser this year but I’ve become a winner in soooooooo many ways.
2012 is rapidly coming to an end. My plan for the year was to be in a better place at the end of each month than I was at the beginning. Looking back that’s exactly what I’ve done. My weight loss has evolved into a lifestyle of healthy food choices and that’s exactly where my Spark journey was headed.
I want to make 2013 more about exercise. I must find alternate ways of achieving this goal since my arthritis is very restricting. I know that losing weight depends on being more active. Time to change gears and take that next exit so I can get My-Ticker moving in the right direction again…
If you are struggling Sparkfriends look at the big picture. If you haven’t quit then YOU are winning. If you are tracking your nutrition, drinking 8 glasses of water a day and learning to love yourself more than food then YOU are a winner. Keep adding keys to your success and one day you’ll wake up and know that you have NOT failed