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I Am a Raging Hormonal Monster

Friday, November 30, 2012

W1D5: ST - Whole Body Split
5 min elliptical warm up
45min ST with rests between sets
5 min elliptical cool down
5 min stretching

I keep waffling back and forth between feeling bad about what happened tonight, and getting mad all over again. Clearly, mood swings are in full force. Allow me to explain...

After almost 2 hours in traffic I get home and start making breakfast burritos for dinner. I'd been craving them since this morning so earlier we decided to eat them tonight. I was tired and cranky.
BF gets home and opens his package of hiking boots that arrived in the mail today. I was a little ticked that ordered them, because it would've made a great Christmas gift. So he's going on and on about his boots, trying them on, asking me to step on his toe to see how strong the reinforcement was. Then he informs me that he also ordered the jacket by the same brand today.


The week of Thanksgiving I went to Bass Pro and picked out that jacket, and already had it hidden downstairs.

I screamed at him. I threw the sausage-covered spatula at him. I called him a Grinch that only thinks of himself at Christmas. I told him how dare he ask for something for Christmas and then go buy it for himself.

I marched downstairs, grabbed the jacket, shoved it in his face, and then stormed off to return it. I also told him I was returning the drill that was downstairs too.

Ok pause-- in writing I sound like a crazy person. But, I just held this image of a perfect Christmas. We would get a tree (which we've never done) and put presents underneath it. On Christmas Day he would open all these great gifts I got him and be so happy. And then he had to go and ruin it by selfishly buying everything on his wishlist. I mean, shouldn't he be shopping for gifts for others?? Why did he splurge on EVERYTHING he wants?

I seriously considered actually returning the drill too. He's just going to buy it for himself anyway, right?

So after I return from more traffic getting to and from Bass Pro, I packed up everything I had prepped for dinner and threw the hashbrowns in the trash, which I knew he was looking forward to. I also found that I've left a considerable gash in the cabinet from the flying spatula.

I ate a bowl of cottage cheese in silence, then left for the gym. I've just gotten back, and we haven't spoken since my blow up.

I can't think clearly. Part of me wants to blame this all on PMS, but part of me blames him for ruining Christmas. I know, I know, it's not all about presents. But it felt so good to get him something he really wanted, and to do it early so I didn't have to stress about it.

I think I'm going to be incredibly juvenile and continue to sulk upstairs, take a bath, and go to bed early.

Side note: Gym wasn't crowded at 7:30 on a Friday (expected). Also, I was the only girl lifting. That was both empowering and incredibly intimidating.

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LOLATURTLE 12/3/2012 11:12AM

    Big hugs. It's okay. Everybody blows up sometimes. I know how you feel, because I have a serious temper. Sometimes I need a time out to cool down before I can explain why I'm mad, haha.

I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting to have a fun present for someone and make them happy, nor is there anything wrong with you for being hurt that you had that taken away from you.

By the way I think that is sort of A Guy Thing, because my husby does similar annoyingness. He whines and moans about how he can't think of anything to put on his Christmas list. Yet every time he sees or mentions something he wants from September - December I remind him to put it on his Christmas list, and he always has 100000 "reasons" why he "can't do that".

"Well it's only available online, I don't think _____ really shops online." "Well I asked for something similar last year so I want to do something different." "Oh well it's on sale right now, and it might not be by the time they buy it and I don't want them to pay full price." ARRGH. Then don't come crying to me when at Thanksgiving everybody wants to know what you want for Christmas and you "can't think of anything"!!!

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SADWHITEWOLF 12/3/2012 9:54AM

    My sister just did the same thing to me. We have a rule in my family that says between mid Oct on Dec you are only allowed to buy yourself necessities (socks, undies, toiletries, food)

She goes two weeks ago and buys the first serried of Dr. Who.
I had already ordered it. ( I always do cute themes for her each year and this year’s theme was Dr. Who, she never know’s the theme till Christmas morning)
When I told reminded her she was breaking the family rule by buying herself media she defended saying it was too expensive for anyone she knew to get it for her so she knew she was safe. She had found it on sale and so HAD to.
Yeah well, I had found the same sale.
GAH!!!! I did not yell at her but I was privately very pissed,
That’s why I though it would be such a great surprise.
Now B&N is putting all BBC show on 50% next week so I have ordered series 2 instead. If she gets that one I think I will just hold onto it (instead of returning like I did the 1st)
She can just return it herself and get something else. The point it is my intention to make her happy. I refuse to keep getting upset and let it ruin my Christmas.

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    UGH! I'd be mad also. Relationships are challenging and I'd be raging in this case too. Been there, done that. Hang in there.

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LEB0401 12/1/2012 10:48AM

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Wow... I am really full of grace, aren't I?

Woke up this morning completely cowed. I could've handled that a million better ways than screaming and throwing kitchen untensils. Poor guy didn't know what he was up against!

Luckily he is an absolute angel and isn't holding it against me (too much). I'll be spending the day trying to be the girlfriend he deserves ...And maybe I should take some time to discover the true meaning of Christmas.

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MIATIA1 12/1/2012 1:03AM

    I will have been maried 25th years in February and have gone through the same thing
every Christmas with my DH. If he doesnt' already have it by Christmas it was only because he got one of the kids to talk telling him what daddy was getting as a present.

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