I am very happy to report that it's been a full month since I've been back on Spark. I've been tracking what I've been eating in full honesty, incorporating moderate exercise at 30 minute clips for at least two times per week, and eating breakfast regardless if I am hungry.
I really, really, REALLY didn't want to do anything of these things a month ago, but I knew I had to start somewhere and I knew that I had to start small. Small leads to bigger (no pun intended) and bigger leads to smaller!
So... I acted "as if". As if I believed in myself again... as if I believed I could undo the damage... as if I believed I was worthy. Because I am.
What's changed? So much...
I am laughing again.
I am smiling again.
I am encouraging others again.
My pants aren't suction cupped to my booty.
I am drinking enough water every single day.
I am back to running (slow) 5K's!
I'm signed up for a new year's 5K with TJDOESLIFE!
I've enjoyed my food in moderation for the most part.
I hit my required gym visits to get a reimbursement!
My brain is working again!!!
I don't look or feel like this anymore!
Most of all, not only do I feel hopeful again but I don't feel hopeless. Getting started is the hardest part. Now? Now when I stumble, I get back up again and remember not all has been lost. It's not all or nothing, I just get to choose better for myself next time.
I am so very thankful.