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The Struggle Continues...

Friday, November 30, 2012

I've slipped again. I got a cold--in fact, I got two. I was recovering from the first when the second one hit. The second one was worse, and while, I'm almost over it - it seems to want to linger.
I've neglected my goals in pretty much all areas and I'm only semi-motivated to get going again. I was really excited to be a part of the BLC20, but slipped there too. I feel bad for not at least attempting to participate after the first 6 weeks. Ugh.
I saved some money and decided to use it to purchase a Fitbit and I'm hoping that this helps motivate me to get those steps in.
I just feel as if I'm all over the place - not just with my weight loss, but my life in general. My depression surrounds me and I'm struggling to break free. It's a fog that just seems endless.
I know what I need to do to get back on track, I'm just not at a place where I'm going to do it. I could, but I won't. Not yet. The sense of blah has taken hold and I must snap out of it.
I will. I will. I will.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
GRAMMAOF16 5/12/2013 2:46PM

    is the fitbit working for you?

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SHARON10002 12/6/2012 6:41PM

    Hope that your Fit Bit is the motivator you need to keep you going!

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MALEXANDER4 12/2/2012 7:10PM

    I'm in the same place right now. In fact earlier I sat and had a good cry over where i'm at. I'm almost back where I began the journey and i'm not liking me much right now. Maybe I need my medication rechecked. I just can't seem to get the energy to begin. So you and me we need to take care of us first and the rest will follow. emoticon

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NEWKATHYNOW 12/1/2012 3:26PM

    Sometimes you need something different or exciting to get your Spark going again. Perhaps the Fitbit will do it for you! emoticon

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SPOONGIRLDEB 12/1/2012 11:22AM


Just a thought, I saw on your sparkpage that you are on thyroid medication - maybe your dosage needs increased? I know before I started thyroid meds I felt like I was always in a fog and it was really hard to get motivated to do anything. Once I finally got my dose adjusted correctly, that improved. And I don't know if you're on meds for depression, but they can make your thyroid hard to control, so might be something to look into. Nothing worse than that feeling of apathy. Here's hoping it goes away soon!

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IAM_HIS2 12/1/2012 10:33AM

    So glad you posted this instead of keeping it all inside. WTG!

Perhaps you need to speak with your doctor about how you feel. Sometimes medication can help. Depression is something that doesn't go away and we can't think our self out of it.

Please don't think about what you didn't do. Think about what you can do. You took a big step by posting here. And I know we will help you in any way we can.

Keep sharing and we'll keep encouraging and supporting you.

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TATTER3 12/1/2012 12:31AM

    I fought severe depression for over a decade! It's painful and overwhelming. I wish I had words to say...but just know I care. Keep Sparkin'!!

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 11/30/2012 8:07PM

    Hang in there. You can do this. We all take steps backwards. It is all about pushing forward even when you do not feel like. Grab a hold of my hand and jump back on the wagon. emoticon

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SKEPCHICK 11/30/2012 7:58PM

  Don't beat yourself up. You'll get to a good place soon enough. Hope the Fitbit helps.

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BIGPAWSUP 11/30/2012 4:36PM

    You get there. Enjoy the Fitbit and just start small. Work your way back up!

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NORWOODGIRL 11/30/2012 4:24PM

    I love my Fitbit. Hope it is a motivator for you.

Depression is tough. Several people in my family suffer from it. It is always aggravated at this time of year by seasonal affective disorder. Darn these short days! One person replaced the bulb where she most frequently sits with a full spectrum light bulb. She couldn't afford the full bank of lights that are recommended. It has helped her. Maybe something like that would help you a little?

Despite being touted as the best season of the year, many people feel really blue now for a variety of reasons. Don't be too hard on yourself.

Many people who eat too many carbs - particularly refined carbs - also relate that they feel like they are living in a fog. Make sure that you are eating enough protein and cut back on the carbs.

emoticon Being sick is the pits! It's hard to get anything going when you just don't feel well. Take care of yourself! emoticon

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PLANTAGO 11/30/2012 4:15PM

    Sometimes it just happens, doesn't it? Wishing you to break free from the blah. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PSAPPEN 11/30/2012 3:32PM

    You can do it. I know what you are going through, and it took quite a wake up call for me to move on from my depression. Just remember, where there's a will there's a way. You had 3 wills, so there are at least 3 ways.


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MYUTMOST4HIM 11/30/2012 3:29PM

    My DH is getting me a Fitbit for Christmas - I hope this helps me

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