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Glad November is OVER!

Friday, November 30, 2012

Morning everyone. I blew blogging last night. Sorry. I’ve pretty much blown November.

I started out so good. I was ahead on everything, even my maintenance. Then the family hit and things started to unravel. Now don’t get me wrong – I LOVE my family. But after me the next smallest one is my sister who is 5’3” and in the 180’s (maybe 190 by now). My dad and uncle consider her “small” – getting the picture. Rich food and lots of drink are facts of life. Borsch and lamb/goat cheeses and glug (a home brew that I don’t even want to THINK about the calorie count in) and pies and cakes and cookies and . . . you get the picture. This is everyday eating in my family.

Needless to say, getting back to a semblance of a decent calorie count has been a chore. What makes it harder is I don’t cook, so I never have these foods that I grew up with except when family makes them. It was so hard not to eat until bursting, drink until dizzy, and just not care. Then of course dad keeps cooking like this through Christmas and keeps sending it over because I’m getting “malnourished”. I’m tiny and going to freeze to death. Yo dad, we don’t live in St. Petersburg anymore! And there is this nifty little think called “heat”.

I finally called myself out on my steps and mileage today. Guess what I won’t achieve ONE goal I set for myself. My step count is low by more the 21,000 which means mileage is off by more than 10 miles – I can’t do that today. We will NOT discuss fitness minutes. It is depressing.

And before anyone says “well you are down a pound yesterday”, I’m actually still up 2 from last week’s debacle. We won’t go into the boy child getting suspended from school. Or the guilt trips that are being laid on me by so-called friends because I have put my family and business first. Just feels like everything I’ve works so hard for is coming apart at the seams. I am well aware that is just a feeling and I have the ability to turn it around. It is hard to WANT to.

I want to just throw November away and start December. I have my Santa Hustle that I have been looking forward to for a month. I need a good race tomorrow. I’m going to say anything under 40 minutes is good. I’ve got a raging head cold and the shoes that helped my shins the other day have given my horrible foot pain. I’m debating what to run in. But I am running. I have to have something to get December started and feel successful about.
I have to do what I would tell anyone else. Just make tomorrow day one. Get back to basics and baby steps. I’ve come this far, I know I can do this. Just have to tackle one thing at a time.

Sorry, I’m not much motivation today. Hopefully will be on a runner’s high tomorrow.
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    Oh my goodness! The people who insist on pushing food on you that you don't want. Take it, thank them and then throw it in the trash barrel. If you don't want to feel deprived, put a single serving in a leftover container and then toss the rest in the trash barrel. Don't let yourself think too hard. Experience has taught me that if I think too hard, I won't do it. I just went through that today, only it was a friend who treated me to lunch. He asked (pushed) not once, not twice, not three times, no, no, no, no --- he asked FIVE times if I wanted dessert. I wanted to say, "What part of "no thank you" do you not understand?" Ugh.

    Stay strong, girl. You are doing great.
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    1935 days ago
    The important thing is to look back and understand what went wrong. Only then you may be able to correct it...
    We all have our bad days (I even have bad weekS) but you are still here and you fight for being healthy! That's what matters the most!
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    1936 days ago
    Kiss November goodbye and set your sights on December. Sometimes a stumble helps us come back even stronger. Kick some butt in your Santa Hustle, but take good care of those feet!
    1937 days ago
    You know what, we all have our days or weeks or months even. Take some deep breaths and relax for a just a minute. I was hoping to double my fitness minutes in November but it didn't happen. That just means that I need to make December a good month.

    Sometimes life can get overwhelming and it sounds like your plate is flowing over. At least you have a race that you are looking forward to. The holidays will be over soon enough. Just take it one day at a time. I hope you enjoy your race and finish with a good time.

    I'm sorry your friends are not being supportive of you. I can guarantee that they'd be doing the same thing if they were you. If they were really your friends they'd be understand and supportive of you.

    November didn't go as well as you had hoped but it's in the past now. You can make December the month you want it to be. Just take it one day and one moment at a time!

    1937 days ago
    Yeah, you may have blown it, but DON'T LOOK BACK and get discouraged...Look December and the future!!! YOU CAN DO THIS and you know what??? I KNOW YOU CAN!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    Comment edited on: 11/30/2012 11:33:42 PM
    You had your goals. You know what happened. Owning it is a great starting point for a new month. Take it one day at a time. The festivities will come the second part of the month. Leave those worries for then and show yourself what you can do the first three weeks. I'm trying to look at December that way because I know the holidays will pose some fairly big challenges that are very real. My biggest fear is always whether I'll loose the momentum and not gain the will power to get back on track. But so far so good this time around. So back in the saddle tomorrow, Kitty. Your Santa Hustle is a great way to begin a new month. Travel on one day at a time. Put this little blip in perspective of the whole journey and you'll find yourself with lots to celebrate despite November. Let's press on.
    1937 days ago
    You may think there is no motivation here today, but I beg to differ. Your blog reads like many of us feel over the holidays. We've all over indulged, missed out on workouts and had days we just "don't care." What your blog does for me is help me remember I am not alone in those feelings, it's all part of life and part of this journey.

    There are hard decisions to be made over the holidays, truth is there is not right or wrong answer that fits everybody. Some of us will stick to a plan through to the new year, others will opt to indulge and enjoy all the family favorites and deal with the plan come the new year and others will land somewhere in the middle. We have to find what will work for us, do it the best we can and not beat ourselves up. The world is out there waiting to remind us how bad we are and point wagging fingers; I say boo to all that. We are amazing people in our own ways, be happy and know that no matter what choices are made over the holidays we will not give up and we will continue on our journeys.

    A final thought about people that try guilt us into doing things they want us to do...well, if that is their tactics then I have to wonder how good of a friend they are. Of course, friends want time with us, but they should also understand that life is busy and free time is not always available. Plus anybody that says family and your livelihood should take a backseat to them is being selfish.

    Kitty, you know you're amazing and that you've come a long way, the holidays are an expected bump in the road...I say hit it at high speed and see if you can fly emoticon
    Enjoy your race, I hope the shins and feet do alright, I have no doubt it will leave you feeling exhilarated and feeling much better.
    1937 days ago
    Its okay we all have those days of why the heck did i wake up today this month this year and so on. You can do this i promise don't worry about goals reached and goals not reached just try try again and you'll reach them i promise. We will conquer December together. emoticon emoticon
    1937 days ago
    Kitty I'm going to send you a sparkmail. Who are these "friends" laying guilt trips? Don't ever let anyone make you feel less than who and what you are.... because while you may be small in body stature, you are 10 feet tall to me! You can do this, you've been doing it all along, and you will do it again! I believe in you! Love and emoticon Karen
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    Comment edited on: 11/30/2012 10:01:36 PM
    No one said you had to motivate everyone every day! Cheer yourself on and keep going! Can't wait to read about the Santa Hustle! Seems like such fun! Sorry to hear about Boy child.... If only they all could be dogs! My dad wants to feed me to death too! I will allow it on Christmas Eve b/c I will get homemade peiroghis and other good stuff. It only happens once a year for me! I will also probably drink too much.... Oh well. Hope that cold gets better quickly! Have a great race!
    1937 days ago
    Oh, starting over is so frustrating, but kudos to you for doing what it takes to get back to where you want to be.

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  • 1EMMA2011
    So proud of you!! I am glad November is over too!! emoticon
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  • CIPHER1971

    Hoping December brings you everything you deserve emoticon

    Have a great day and a good race tomorrow
    1937 days ago
    Keep moving forward! Nothing can be done about the past, it's only the present and future we can change. Learn your lessons (I'll be blogging mine later today) and keep chugging forward.

    Frankly, I'm getting to the point where I just think my body's defective. I've improved my eating habits, given up alcohol, admittedly slowed down a bit on exercise but still getting it in every day and I haven't lost a pound in several months. It's depressing, but at least I haven't gained!

    I'm with Optimist on this one too, if you always hit your goals, then you're not setting high enough goals. You'll get more in December!
    1937 days ago
    Forget November. December will start right with the race. Just keep going from there.

    As for critical people...? They are difficult to ignore, but we have your back.
    1937 days ago
  • ANDY_54
    emoticon emoticon Yep December is just a few hours away now (at least by eastern time). Hope it turns out ever so much better than November. I need to get back on track too, will be thinking of you! Take care.
    1937 days ago
    You have done so well, this far, even though November maybe didn'tgo so well for you as you feel, but overall you have done amazing!
    December is a new month and a chance to start all over again!
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    Grab your eraser and make November disappear - sounds like a plan to me. I've had to do that more than once! You just have to look forward and not back, focus on what you can manage and do your best to ignore what you can't.

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  • LEB0401
    You'll wake up tomorrow to a whole new month, a fresh start!

    It's going to be a GREAT December emoticon
    1937 days ago
    You said - "the guilt trips that are being laid on me by so-called friends because I have put my family and business first" I'm sorry but this is your job. You chose to have a family and a business and if you don't put it first - no one will. If they were your true friends they would understand. A true friend would be there helping you. Or if anything, cutting you some slack. (thanks for letting me get that out).

    And I know about the family. My mother (whom lives with us), bless her heart, cooks most meals before we get home. She knows I am "changing" my eating habits and trying to lead a healthful life for my kids. I mentioned something about being worried how much salt was in the gravy and she proudly told me she didn't add any. The only salty taste came from the garlic salt she put on the meat. (Really?)

    So what if November wasn't stellar. The great thing about tomorrow is the fact that you can wake up and try over again. And if you don't make all of your goals - you can do it again and again until you master that perfection.

    Much love.
    1937 days ago
    *HUGS* oh honey. :( I'm sorry things are going so rough right now. It will get better!!!
    1937 days ago
    Hugs, I know you can get moving again! Just keep going one step at a time. If you won't, who will?
    1937 days ago
    Good luck on your race tomorrow. Get your Santa on!!
    1937 days ago
    Yeah, keep moving forward! Don't let the Turkeys get you down. Or the pumpkin pie. ;)
    1937 days ago
  • DALMOM2007
    OK, take a deep breath and count to 5......exhale and repeat a few more times. Relax...

    You really seem like you are overwhelmed..too many things at once. Take one thing at a time. Sounds like the race tomorrow should help take away your stress. The holidays...will be over before you know it and then everything always seems to be fresh and new after New Years.

    Regarding your friends giving you a hard time over your family and business...that is just sad. They should be supporting you and be happy that you are trying to start a successful business of your own.

    Wishing you good luck (and pain free running shoes) for your race tomorrow. Remember to have FUN!

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  • OPTIMIST1948
    Yep. Definetyly time to shut the door on this month! I like the attitude, directions you are taking yourself. Please continue it! You are worth it!

    And dont flog yourself about your goal. It just means you set one. If you hit your goals every time, then you are not really challenging yourself.
    1937 days ago
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