Disheartening Doctor Appointment
Friday, November 30, 2012
I went to the doctor yesterday on my daughter's insistence for some health issues that I have been having. I was hoping for better answers than I got, but at least now I know where I stand and what I need to do.
My first problem is that I am having difficulty more and more swallowing when eating. My food gets stuck at the top of my throat. The doctor explained that sometimes a web develops in the esophagus. The solution is to have an endoscopic procedure. She said the most often just having the procedure breaks up the web. I've had the procedure before and am not really looking forward to it. First of all, I will have to be driven because I will be sedated. I hate to impose on others to take me places. And I always get physically sick - okay, I throw up and then I'm fine. Still not looking forward to it, but hoping the procedure helps. I really hate the choking feeling I get while eating.
I am also having problems with some medications that I am on that my psychiatrist keeps prescribing for me. I feel that they are too strong and that I no longer need to be on them. I have been trying for a year now to get him to decrease the dosage as I know that is the way that I have to wean myself off of them. I finally got him to decrease one of them on my last visit. I was hoping my regular doctor would be able to help me out a little. She said she really couldn't help me with the one. She did tell me that I could cut the other one in half on my own and slowly get off of it. So this was somewhat good news.
The thing I am having the biggest problem with is that I have gained a few pounds back. The doctor said that I am definitely still very much under what is considered a normal weight for me, but it is driving me crazy that this happened. I have this urge to re-evaluate what I've been eating and the exercises that I've been doing. My daughter just tells me that I really shouldn't and that she would be happier if I gained more weight. But I have it in my head that I am feeling uncomfortable with my weight. I started with a new therapist and I guess in my heart and head that I know I should talk to her about this. But, it's still a big issue with me.