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Disheartening Doctor Appointment

Friday, November 30, 2012

I went to the doctor yesterday on my daughter's insistence for some health issues that I have been having. I was hoping for better answers than I got, but at least now I know where I stand and what I need to do.

My first problem is that I am having difficulty more and more swallowing when eating. My food gets stuck at the top of my throat. The doctor explained that sometimes a web develops in the esophagus. The solution is to have an endoscopic procedure. She said the most often just having the procedure breaks up the web. I've had the procedure before and am not really looking forward to it. First of all, I will have to be driven because I will be sedated. I hate to impose on others to take me places. And I always get physically sick - okay, I throw up and then I'm fine. Still not looking forward to it, but hoping the procedure helps. I really hate the choking feeling I get while eating.

I am also having problems with some medications that I am on that my psychiatrist keeps prescribing for me. I feel that they are too strong and that I no longer need to be on them. I have been trying for a year now to get him to decrease the dosage as I know that is the way that I have to wean myself off of them. I finally got him to decrease one of them on my last visit. I was hoping my regular doctor would be able to help me out a little. She said she really couldn't help me with the one. She did tell me that I could cut the other one in half on my own and slowly get off of it. So this was somewhat good news.

The thing I am having the biggest problem with is that I have gained a few pounds back. The doctor said that I am definitely still very much under what is considered a normal weight for me, but it is driving me crazy that this happened. I have this urge to re-evaluate what I've been eating and the exercises that I've been doing. My daughter just tells me that I really shouldn't and that she would be happier if I gained more weight. But I have it in my head that I am feeling uncomfortable with my weight. I started with a new therapist and I guess in my heart and head that I know I should talk to her about this. But, it's still a big issue with me.
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    Hi Patty,
    sorry to hear about the medical issues.... my mother had a similar, but even more complicated and she's had surgery etc. etc. I hope the procedure is as simple as they say and the results are long-lasting..

    glad you did go get checked by dr., but remember that we also have to take responsibility for our own health.
    Which reminds me I need to go for mammo and pap before I leave here, don't know if I can do that

    take care of you...
    1906 days ago
    emoticon I know what you mean as I now have to be chauffered around as I can't drive with my leg in the brace. I hope the procedure you are having done helps with the swallowing issue. I hope that you are able to get weaned off both of the medications that you are taking. Wishing you the best!

    1908 days ago
  • MOMMA48
    emoticon And I'm sorry you have to go through the various procedures, but it's great that you're on top of things with your doctors, etc., and I hope all works out for the best in the days ahead, hun!
    1910 days ago
    Congrats for going to the doctor and taking care of yourself! Since your doctor reassured you that your underweight gaining a couple of pounds sounds like your going in a healthy direction. Sometimes it's hard to put ourselves first because we think we are being selfish. I think we have it backwards. It's selfish not to take care of ourselves. We want to be around a long time for our children & grandchildren. You may want to journal your thoughts and check as you wean yourself off the medication. Bring the journal to your appointment to show your psychiatrist. emoticon
    1910 days ago
    Patty please don't try to stay very far underweight. It is as dangerous as being severely overweight. I have swallowing difficulties also and although the procedure is not one you like sometimes it must be done. There are times that I have found myself unable to breathe properly because of it. Take care of yourself and concentrate on being healthy. emoticon
    1910 days ago
    Try to find a doctor who is well versed in general practice and psychological issues. It's never good if two doctors prescribe different medications.
    1910 days ago
    Reading your blog reminds me of why I don't like the medical profession. It seems every time I go for whatever problem I'm having, they think I'm there for medicine. Is that what doctors are all about? Just being a gateway to big pharma? I have never met a doctor like the guy on TV (House) who really is interested in figuring out what is wrong with the patient. I see doctors and face time is about 10 minutes or less. I have often thought I should take something to take the edge off. When I taught middle school, many if not most of my colleagues were taking anti-depressants or anti-anxiety medication or some kind of drug in that category. I have never done it. I am the one who lost her job for not getting along with the kids. I really thought about medication when that happened! But my fear is that if I start, I'll have to take it for the rest of my life and I just don't want to do it. I'm not suicidal or even all that negative. I think I'm pretty positive really.

    I know it's radical, but I'm glad to see marijuana legalized in a few places and hope it spreads nationwide. I used to smoke it in my 20s and it was great for decompressing. Smoking is not a healthy lifestyle choice I know and they say modern pot is so much stronger than what we had back then. I wish we could just have a plant in the back yard and have a puff or two whenever we wanted in our leisure time to help calm our nerves, etc. I didn't think of myself as addicted to pot, maybe it was a habit, but it's not like I had withdrawals if I didn't get it. I also like the fact that it isn't some chemical amalgamation created in the lab with unknown side effects. I am not a big drinker and wouldn't want to be--it's so bad for your health and drinking makes you lose control not to mention people get addicted to it, yet it is legal. I reject cigarettes too for their health issues and addictive properties (not to mention the smelliness of them). Sorry to vent to you, but there it is.
    1910 days ago
    My experience has been that women do tend to gain weight as they age... so maybe those returning pounds are a function of growing older and wiser? I hope you are also looking at all your blessings every time something starts to feel negative. You are on SparkPeople and taking care of yourself with help from professionals and your daughter. Way to go! Woo-hoo!
    1910 days ago
  • EOWYN2424
    Go to a doctor that will listen to your concerns. But make sure he/she is legit.
    1910 days ago
    Sorry to hear about your medical problems

    The weight gain could be a result of the drugs your psychiatrist has you on. Check the side effects of each drug on line and most likely that is what you are going to find there are several great websites where you can enter your drugs, including supplements and find out the intereactions between them including things your pharmacy might be missing

    1910 days ago
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