Friday, November 30, 2012
Last night before heading to the gym I felt a little down.
The past few months have not been great. Since May, I have had to give up a lot. Like a great job that made more than twice what I make now and allowed me to escape from this stuffy little Ohio town. The job I had to give up would have allowed me to completely pay off all debt and student loans as well as put an awesome down payment on a house by the end of this year. But some things happened in life and now here I am. I'm back in this town that I dislike and our tiny little apartment. Unfortunately I have allowed myself to spend the last 6 months in a flurry of depression and anger and it has shown on the scale. I went from my lowest weight of 128 back up to 146 (only 7 pounds from where I started my journey in September 2011 at my high weight of 153!). However, I am ready to start my emotional healing and to let go of the resentment I have felt towards those who caused my circumstances. I want to make the best of my situation, be a better wife, and most of all get "me" back. I want to feel lean and strong and confident again, like I did when I finished that half marathon.
So.... I took some old friends to the gym with me last night to remind me of what I'm capable of!
Yes... these bad boys are a little worn... smudged... and stained.... but they have been with me through some of the toughest times! The stains that no amount of Shout or Bleach will remove are really battle scars!
They have been with me at the track, at the gym, in my living room with Jillian kicking my a**....
They were with me when I shed sweat, blood, and tears!
They were with me when I ran 13.1 miles through muddy trails in the middle of the pouring rain to complete my dream of running a Half Marathon!
They were with me when I weighed in at 25lbs lost!!!
And if I did it once, I can do it again.
So my kicks might have been looking a little shabby at Snap last night, but it was for a good reason. Here's to getting "me" back.