Discouraged. Back out of One-derland
Friday, November 30, 2012
I hadn't officially weighed in since November 9th until this morning. With all the craziness of Thanksgiving break, holiday shopping, and NaNoWriMo I didn't want to stress myself out by looking at the scales too much. Ok, I did look at the scales but I kept telling myself it was "fluke" and I didn't write it down.
On Monday night I met my NaNoWriMo goal. I have been feeling EXHAUSTED ever since. I think the 4-5 hours of sleep a night has finally caught up to me. Either that or it's the cold and snow. Whatever it is, I haven't written since Monday. I knew I wasn't going to write on Tuesday, but I had planned to write on Wednesday and Thursday. I haven't been sleeping either. I just haven't been writing. Sigh.
So today is the last day of the month, and I checked the scale this morning and I am at 200.4. I am very discouraged. I have eaten as well as I could, exercised as well as I could (even doing strength training when I really felt tired, and of course I did a lot of walking). Really I have not been a bum. My writing time came from when I would have been sleeping or playing games or reading Facebook. It was not done on prime-exercise time.
But there you have it. I'm over the 200 mark again and I hate myself for it.
I know it's temporary and all of that, but I really don't want to end the year higher than I finished it last year. I just don't. This bugs me a lot. And that story isn't done yet, and I'm tired.
Sorry to be Debbie Downer. This is just where I'm at this morning.