Friday, November 30, 2012
Well, as they say, old habits die hard. Yesterday, despite having my plan all entered for the day like i have been doing for 6 weeks now, I was completely derailed. My coworker is leaving for a new job and brought in some maple coated snickerdoodle cookies. I was stressed and reverted back to my old "you deserve it! just try one!" and so I did.
And had I left it at that, it would've been fine. Not the healthiest choice, but I could swap out that for the snack I had scheduled for the afternoon.
But alas, I did NOT stop there. I kept going back to the bag. I lost count but I think by the end of the day I had eaten at least 8. They were small...but still.
And so the spiral began. I asked my husband innocently, lets order sushi tonight. So I added some sushi, gyoza and edamama to my dinner. I came out about 700 calories more than what I had planned for due to my poor choices earlier.
This morning I woke up, knowing I'm going for a good-bye party for this same coworker, and so much of me wanted to say "I'll give myself a day off, enjoy myself tonight, and restarted tomorrow." But then the tiny part of me that KNEW I was stepping onto a slippery slope, took hold. It's a dinner party, so I am bringing more than my fair share to make sure I can eat my own food and not be tempted.
6 weeks has been a typical shelf life for me on eating, and i really need to get past it to give myself a glimmer of hope that this time, for once, it will really work for me.
And so far, I have been able to stop myself from letting one day affect the next, and for me, that is good news.
That being said, I'm feeling really vulnerable this weekend, and I would love any motivation on sticking to the course!