Small victory of not pigging out
Friday, November 30, 2012
Tonight they had a pancake feed on campus. Because Adam and i live less than a mile, we definitely had to get a piece of that. So we did.
The good thing is that they literally ran out of fresh ones JUST before I was about to take two (they ask if you want 1 or 2, but you can cycle though the line as many times as you want until they completely run out). That lucky timing actually gave me an opportunity to think. I remember the dream I had last night. I was at a buffet (located inside a supermarket of all places) and I was carrying a plate piled high with food. There were a lot of veggies on my plate, and there was a huge steak on it too. It was still an obscene amount of food. I was walking and caught my own reflection in the window. I was thin in this dream. I was wearing an aqua colored cotton tank top with a white cotton summer skirt. I had cute sandals on, and my hair was long again. I looked great. I've noticed that I'll have dreams about eating huge amounts of food when I know I'm doing well on this journey. Anyway, just when I had finished thinking about this dream, they had more ready. I asked for one.
I guess the buffet setting made me remember that just because we have an opportunity to pig out, doesn't mean we should. To be honest, I had completely forgotten about it altogether, but Adam wanted to go. The end result? I took one pancake, and used a portion cup to dip it into my syrup, and then had 1 sausage link, and 8 oz of orange juice. Overall, not bad. I only went over my calories by 36. Either way, right now my goal is to just track everything as accurately as possible. I'm not going to start worrying too much about staying within range until I've made this a solid habit. It's been 26 days so far of being 100% honest with the tracker. It's amazing! It's almost been a month! Even when I was having success with weight loss last year, i still didn't always track everything, every day, or honestly. The good news though is even though I've not always stayed within range, I've lost weight. It makes me happy.
What makes me happier is I set the short term goals to see how long it could take for me to get to 230 pounds (the fated "100 pounds lost mark") and it turns out that it would be exactly on Valentine's day-The same day in 2009 when my butt couldn't fit into the seat at the Newport seafood grill. The funny thing? I'm going to that restaurant tomorrow (though the actual incident occurred at the one in Portland) for a birthday.
It's a small victory-to only eat one pancake, but that victory is mine. I'm also happy because i resisted McDonalds this morning. I ate breakfast almost right after waking up and while I could have eaten my usual 2 sausage biscuits, I didn't. Instead, I took one regular sized bite-which is much fewer calories than a whole one.