Thursday, November 29, 2012
going to CT completely screwed up my mojo! I was on a roll with diet and exercise, lost 2 pounds. Then i go home and eat gobs of stuffing and gravy (gluten free of course) and gain those 2 pounds right back.
Monday and Tuesday I didn't eat horribly but I didn't exercise either because I felt like a flare up was coming on. I had a headache from before thanksgiving until wednesday and then tingling hands so i lied low.
Yesterday was the anniversary of my fathers passing so I gave myself permission to wallow in sadness and eat my feelings which was 1600 calories of a burrito bowl and sushi. It was so much harder than I thought it would be.
Today was a new day and I thought about the commitment I had made to myself for my 30th and I ate well and went to the gym. It was a sucessful day. I am still struggling with the long term aspect of this, that i have so much to go. I want this so badly but it seems so out of reach. I am trying to remind myself that its one day at a time and also that the more I use this site the more I will stick to my plan.
But I am back and I can do this. I just have to remind myself that everything I have ever wanted in my life I have gotten so i should be able to get my health back too...I am one determined bitch.