Thursday, November 29, 2012
Cooper and I only walked 5.2 miles today. I slept through my alarm this morning, so we only had an hour to walk this morning before company came. My brother showed up too with 2 gallons of water for drinking. My company didn't leave until nearly 2pm. After she left Cooper and I went out for a quick walk around the block, before my dad picked us up for my afternoon appointment. We dropped Cooper off at the farm so he could play with kids, and I toddled off to shop for groceries and to go to my appointment with my therapist. I managed to fit everything in and make it back to pick up my dad just after 5pm. We drove out to the farm to pick up the dog and my youngest niece, but had to wait a little while as my mom had taken them to chorale rehearsal. (My niece sings, and my mom waits in the car for her and Cooper went along for the company.) Anyways... got home, put away the groceries and headed right back out to walk Cooper one last time. Came in from that and made supper, fiddled around on the computer a little bit then read a book.
The water problem in my village might be fixed by Saturday, but possibly not until next Wednesday. I hear conflicting stories from different people. Washing dishes becomes more of a chore when you have to boil the water first. I only have one big pot, so it takes a while to boil enough water. I am really glad my brother brought me that bottled water, because even after boiling it the water looks and tastes a little funny. I definitely miss using tap water and it has only been two days. I am spoiled!
I had an interesting session with my therapist today. She says my anxiety sounds less like social anxiety and more like agoraphobia. I have to learn to balance between reducing my anxiety and not becoming too isolated. I need to lower my anxiety levels, but the easiest way to do that is to stay home. I stay by myself too much and I start isolating and cutting myself off from social interactions which isn't healthy. I need to find a middle ground. I like being by myself a lot of the time, but I do get lonely occasionally. I find that if I don't tend to my friendships and family relationships that when I need company it is difficult to come by. Relationships take work. Sometimes they are worth the effort...