Thursday, November 29, 2012
I made the most awesome pulled pork yesterday. Seriously you guys, just amazing. Also, Iím fairly sure that North Carolina barbecue might be the best. Itís the vinegar, I think.
So far, so good for my holiday plan. Iím actually making myself eat 1500 calories a day, which sounds silly, I know. In fact, yesterday after dinner I had to have a banana with two tablespoons of peanut butter (note: peanut butter and banana sandwich? Best sandwich in existence), and then I still had to have eight Wheat Thins just to put me over. I really donít think Iím starving myself either. I havenít done this for a while, but hereís what I had to eat yesterday:
Breakfast: A Thomasí Light Whole Wheat English Muffin, egg, Canadian bacon slice, and a slice of Kraft 2% milk American cheese. Total: 238 calories, 9 grams fat, 8 grams fiber, 18 grams protein.
That keeps me fairly satisfied until lunch.
Lunch: Salad (romaine lettuce, tomato, jalapeno, red pepper, mushrooms, red onion) and eight ounces of seasoned chicken breast. Total: 352 calories, 6 grams fat, 7 grams fiber, 58 grams protein.
That kept me going through the end of the day and my workout after work.
Dinner: Seven ounces pulled pork shoulder, Near East Parmesan Couscous mix, steamed peas. Total: 547 calories, 8 grams fat, 4 grams fiber, 49 grams protein.
So at this point, Iím at 1137 calories, and Iím not really hungry. Still, I grab myself the aforementioned peanut butter and banana and Wheat Thins and ended up at a decent 1506 for the day. Itís hard when Iím not really that hungry. Itís the right move though. I donít really get hungry on a given day, but a streak of five or six 1200-calorie days in a row wears me down, even if I donít turn into a ravenous beast.
I feel like Iím getting to a point where things are starting to really normalize. I donít mean that Iím done losing weight. Far from it; my weight loss seems to be holding up just fine. But itís all becoming routine, which is both good and bad. I donít dread the gym, I have no problem eating well, itís just my new normal. Thatís a great thing. I just donít want to get complacent. Yesterday was both a good workout and a bad one. I burned plenty of calories, so in that sense it was good, but I feel like my effort just wasnít what I wanted. Not a big deal; not every day can be a winner, but the treadmill broke me a little bit. I got on there fully planning to run the entire 5K loop, but after a mile I had to pull it back and walk/run the rest.
Thereís a few reasons. First, Iím terrified of the damn treadmill. My balance on there is getting better, but if I watch the TVs for more than 20 seconds or so I start drifting to one side or the other and I have to swerve back to the middle, which makes me look like an insane person. Or at least very clumsy. Second, I was blazing hot. Shockingly, running outside in late November is different than running on a treadmill inside a gym. It didnít help that I was wearing long sleeves because Iím an idiot.
Iíve got this voice in the back of my head the last couple of days that is trying to tell me thereís no way I can pull off another 5K. Iím not sure where it comes from. Thereís no reason that I canít do it. I just did it four days ago. But my brain keeps trying to convince me otherwise. I donít usually encounter much self-doubt, so this is new for me. I still think that I can do it, but earlier this week I knew I could. Not crippling self-doubt or anything, but just that stupid voice.
In other news, Iím under 290 today for the first time in a long time. Since I didnít weigh myself from February of 2001 (state wrestling meet, 231 pounds) until I hit 440, basically all my numbers will be ďfirst time in foreverĒ until then. So enjoy some more months of that. The good news is that this clears the way for me to have my cheat day on my birthday. Oh my god itís going to be amazing. Iím working on my menu for the day, mostly just from wild hairs I get for certain foods. So far, Iíve got dinner worked out: Chinese buffet. Itís the sh*ttiest food and itís going to be epic. Steamed crab legs and chicken skewers for days at that place. Also, Iím going to have a peanut butter and banana sandwich. Itís going to be awesome. What can I say? Iím a man of simple tastes.