Thursday, November 29, 2012
I am a lucky girl in many ways. I have a loving boyfriend, we have 3 loving beautiful girls, we have a roof over our heads, food on the table. Life is good. I am also very lucky in the fact that I have a good job. Well, I actually currently have two jobs. I am a business professional. I work in IT. I am currently about to become the IT Director for our company. However, before I took this position I was working at a different company. When I gave my notice they asked (begged) if I wouldn't mind still doing some work for them. Just a few hours a day....every day. Yes, including the weekends. I have an unfortunate habit of thinking that I can do anything. That no task is too big. So I agreed. So not only do I work a 40+ hour job at my regular job, I also manage to squeeze in about 15 hours for this other company. Again, this is NOT a complaint. In the economic times that we are in, I am fortunate to have ANY job, let alone 2.
That being said, work tends to get in the way of my weight loss goal. Yesterday, I thought, was going to be no exception. I found out that I have a technical proposal, for a bid we are quoting, that needs to be written up and complete by Friday. I also found out that I have documentation that needs to be completed for the "side" job that also needs to be completed by Friday. *Sigh* I knew that this meant I needed to work last night. Like....a lot of work. This (in my head) meant that my plan to work out was not going to happen. So when Jason asked if he could work out first yesterday, as there was a class he wanted to go to, I didn't mind. Again, in my head, I was already thinking that I wasn't going to work out.
When I got home I fed the girls, who then asked if after dinner they could have a treat and watch Brave. Now my kids are ACTIVE girls. They aren't the kind of girls that are going to sit and play tea party, or sit for any amount of time. So normally my nights are spent trying to exert as much energy as possible out of them so that by 8:30-9:00pm they will go to sleep. When they ask to sit and watch a movie it means that they are tired. Wooooooooo!! That was all I could think in my head. If they watch a movie, it means that I can sneak in a quick video and actually get my workout done!! Heck Yeah you can have a treat and watch a movie!! So after dinner I sat them down on the couch, gave them some whoppers as a treat, put on Brave and went to do my Jillian Michaels' video.
What I take from yesterday, is that I need to remember that taking 20-30 even 40-60 minutes for myself isn't going to hurt my kids. My girls KNOW that mummy loves them so very much. They KNOW that I try to do as much for them and with them as I possibly can. However, not taking the time for myself CAN hurt me. I need the time to do what's right for me, so that I don't resent not having that time. Yes, as our girls are still young (7, 5 and 2 1/2), they still need a lot of supervision. However, that doesn't mean that I can't let them fend for themselves for half an hour. I need to remind myself of this constantly.
So I was able to get my workout in. I got some quality time after with my girls. Jason got to go to his class. I was still able to do work. I am able to do it all and it felt great!