Thursday, November 29, 2012
I just got back from my morning walk. It was a slow 4 miles since my ankle is bothering me. It was the slowest mile per minute I have ever walked,but I still walked. I was not in pain so painful that I could not walk. I was thinking about a recent situation and it really got me thinking.( Thinking and walking is a strong suit of mind. I surprise myself that I can actually do both)
A sparkmember recently passed away earlier this week.Her actual name was Aithley,but she went by WINNINGBATTLE on this site. She was twenty-five years old. I remember commenting on several of her blogs seeking advice and her commenting on my page. She was trying to find the courage to post pictures of herself on her blog. She always posted a plan of attack on her weight loss. She had "UP" days and days where she did not want to workout,but she always did the things she needed to do to help herself later.
I do not want to exploit the truly tragic circumstances of her death to prove a point. I thought about her today as I walked. I thought about others on this site who are lacking the motivation or inner drive to work on themselves. One key thing stuck in my not-so-fat- anymore-head .
"If not now then when?" Life is a fleeting thing. What are you waiting on? Tomorrow is not guaranteed to you. You have to fight harder to accomplish your goal. Life is more than weight loss and eating right. It is about enjoying moments. It is about passion for living . It is about triumph and failure.It is about happiness. If you believe the goals you have set for yourself will make you happy and fulfilled ,then the time is now. If this is not the time to do this,then when will it be?
I am not super human or have unshakeable willpower. I am a human being who just so happens to be born a man. I fail and triumph just like any person can and will.
Two years ago I decided I wanted to fix myself. I lost 25 pounds and was on my way,until I was hospitalized at a hospital I was fired from for something I was not a party to.But I lost a 21 year job anyway. I hated being there and my blood pressure would not go down,because of the stress of being there. I got released a week later and I really sank into a depressed state. I gained 25 pounds and a few more ballooning to 321 pounds.
I ate poorly,drank too much alcohol and my only exercise was going to the downstairs fridge to get another beer.Most of you know this already,with the exception of losing my job.
I just decided the beginning of this year to fix myself. I used to say,"I'll walk tomorrow or what's one more day? Which turned to three or more days of inactivity.If not now,then when? Where is my motivation ? Where is my drive? Who says I can't do this? Oh, Yeah! I told myself that I could not do it.
I want everyone who reads this to ask themselves this question. If not now,then when would be a good time for you to take control of your life? Life is shorter than you think,if it would make you happy about one little thing in your life,then the time is right now. Life has a deadline,but you don't know when it is.So quit putting the things that will make you happy on the backburner.Tomorrow could be one day too late.
So in closing I wish Aithley's family the best . She was someone's daughter ,granddaughter,niece,sister and friend. She will be missed.
Now I just finished my healthy lunch. I am going to ride my spin bike for a few miles. I will do my crunches . I am going to shoot baskets with my son when he gets home from school. Because the time is now for me. How about you?