Thursday, November 29, 2012
I think one of the reasons why I have not been able to say I am completely happy with myself is because I do not know what my calling in life is. I do not have a real passion for any activity or task I currently do. Is this possible? I look at others around me and I can see their passion for cooking, teaching, dancing, painting, selling, etc. What about me? How is it that I have not found that one thing that can get me excited?
I certainly feel that this is what truly affects me when I over eat or do not eat healthy. I think I am just bored at life so I eat… In an attempt to kill my boredom I decided to do card making. It has turned out to be great and expensive. However, it is not my real passion. I happen to be good at it, or at least that’s what my friends say, but I am having a hard time finding a passion that I can make into a career.
Maybe what is making me think of this the most is that I have a wonderful fiancé who happens to have his dream job and loves it. I can see how he is happy and I want the same type of happiness.
So today I have decided to do some volunteer work… I will start looking for jobs I can do in my spare time and see what interests me. I have some interest in possibly teaching, I seem to be good a coaching other, so why not explore the options.
Anyway, going a bit long on this one… In conclusion, I need to find Jenel in the midst of it all and still make a living, be a good future wife, be a good sister, be a good daughter, and be good to me. Am I asking for a lot? :)