Thursday, November 29, 2012
I'm really sick and tired of starting over. I'll do really good for a couple of months and then I slide right back to my old habits. I make excuses like 'Gregg keeps ordering pizza because we don't want to cook.' But they are just excuses. I don't have to eat the pizza. I shouldn't eat it and not just because it's so high in calories and fat. It makes me sick. I'm lactose intolerant and the sauce makes my reflux act up. I know if I eat it I'll be sick all night, but I eat it because I'm to lazy to fix anything else to eat. I HAVE to get my food under control. I HAVE to workout/train more consistently. This doing it for a week or two and then nothing isn't working and isn't healthy. I'm getting sick all the time, AGAIN. I'm sick right now. I have severe sinusitis and an upper respiratory infection. I can't walk through my house without the coughing starting and that starts the wheezing. I'm on meds and am starting to get better but I'm frustrated. I can't go run or do anything active that I talk about doing.
So today I'm starting over for the final time.
When I say I'm starting over I mean from the beginning. I'm going to start again with my food and work from there. Baby steps
First goal - log EVERYTHING I eat for the a week. And I mean EVERYTHING! no more "forgetting" to log something that I ate that I shouldn't have or logging less than I really ate. NO MORE LYING TO MYSELF! I'm cheating myself when I do that.
Second goal (once I'm no longer sick) walk at least 1 mile EVERY DAY for 30 days! I can and probably will do more most of the time. But I'm going to walk at least 1 mile every day even if I have to do it inside with a video. I will walk every day.
I'm just going to set those two little baby step goals for now. But I do want to put down a few of my LONG term goals, BIG goals that I have set for myself.
First I want to run/jog an ENTIRE half marathon by the end of 2014. That gives me about 2 years to get up to it. I've completed 3 half marathons so far, but have walked over half of each of them. I'd really like to do this by the end of 2013, but I am giving myself some extra time since I keep getting sick right now.
Second I want to complete a FULL marathon before I'm 40. I'll be 40 May 24th 2016. So I have about 3.5 years to do this. I don't have to run/jog the entire thing. I just want to complete it. And I want to complete it in under 6 hours.
Third On my 40th birthday. May 24th 2016, I want to do a mile of burpees. That is to do burpees for 1 mile. I've even created an event on Facebook for this. So that it's already out there and I can't back out unless I have a medical reason.
For me those are 3 huge goals but I can do them. They are possible goals. They are goals that are important to me. And I'm going to do them even if I have to do them alone. At least I'll know that I did them.
But for now I'm starting small. Log food. Log log log log and walk at least a mile every day for 30 days (once I'm over these infections, should be able to start this within the next week.)
No more cheating myself of a healthy body!