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Hey, Fat Girl.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

This is a blog entry from It is a reminder to me that every time I feel inadequate or self conscious that it is only me and my own fears standing in my way. I am the fat girl, yes, and I am the girl putting forth the effort to be healthier...and that makes me just as worthy of being on that elliptical or just as capable lifting weights. I am no different than anyone else in that gym. We are all there for health. Hope you enjoy this blog as much as I did.

Hey, Fat Girl.
Yes, you. The one feigning to not see me when we cross paths on the
running track. The one not even wearing sports gear, breathing heavy.
You’re slow, you breathe hard and your efforts at moving forward make
you cringe.
You cling shyly to the furthest corridor, sometimes making larger loops
on the gravel ring by the track just so you’re not on it. You sweat so
much that your hair is all wet. You rarely stay for more than 20 minutes
at a time, and you look exhausted when you leave to go back home. You
never talk to anyone. I’ve got something I’d like to say to you.
You are awesome.
If you’d look me in the eye only for an instant, you would notice the
reverence and respect I have for you. The adventure you have started is
tremendous; it leads to a better health, to renewed confidence and to a
brand new kind of freedom. The gifts you will receive from running will
far exceed the gigantic effort it takes you to show up here, to face
your fears and to bravely set yourself in motion, in front of others.
You have already begun your transformation. You no longer accept this
physical state of numbness and passivity. You have taken a difficult
decision, but one that holds so much promise. Every hard breath you take
is actually a tad easier than the one before, and every step is ever so
slightly lighter. Each push forward leaves the former person you were
in your wake, creating room for an improved version, one that is
stronger, healthier and forward-looking, one who knows that anything is
You’re a hero to me. And, if you’d take off the blaring headphones and
put your head up for more than a second or two, you would notice that
the other runners you cross, the ones that probably make you feel so
inadequate, stare in awe at your determination. They, of all people,
know best where you are coming from. They heard the resolutions of so
many others, who vowed to pick up running and improve their health,
“starting next week”. Yet, it is YOU who runs alongside, who digs from
deep inside to find the strength to come here, and to come back again.
You are a runner, and no one can take that away from you. You are
relentlessly moving forward. You are stronger than even you think, and
you are about to be amazed by what you can do. One day, very soon, maybe
tomorrow, you’ll step outside and marvel at your capabilities. You will
not believe your own body, you will realize that you can do this. And a
new horizon will open up for you. You are a true inspiration.
I bow to you.
Dead last finish is greater than did not finish, which trumps DID NOT START.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
RDGISME 11/30/2012 11:57AM

    Thank you for sharing such an inspirational post!!

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FORBANDE 11/30/2012 6:39AM

    I read this awhile ago and LOVED it!! Thanks for sharing!!!

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DJ4HEALTH 11/29/2012 10:54PM

    Love it and that is so true and thank you for your blog.

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LACIEKAY 11/29/2012 6:11PM

    wow.... that brought tears to my eyes! love it.

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FAITH__IN__ME 11/29/2012 4:35PM

    I like this. Be proud, and run! :)

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DEBLYNN323 11/29/2012 4:21PM

    I've seen this before....great blog! Thanks for sharing!

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COLEYBANANA 11/29/2012 2:01PM

    This is amazingly inspiring! I have to say that I too applaud when I see larger people out riding their bikes or running. I know that I'm one of the larger people, but it always makes me feel good inside when I see others trying to improve themselves.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 11/29/2012 11:19AM

    I totally loved this too. It was awesome!!

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WENWASHING67 11/29/2012 10:14AM

    Great post and a total inspiration. It's hard to get out there but I'm doing it. I'll think of this blog as I'm out there slugging along. Thanks for the post.

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LOLATURTLE 11/29/2012 10:02AM

    I read this somewhere else recently! I don't think at the original blog, but another repost. I love it, thank you for sharing.

I also like the part about finishing last. I did my first "real" 5k recently and that was pretty much my proudest accomplishment - I was NOT last!! haha!

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