Thursday, November 29, 2012
At the beginning of my journey, I was losing about 6 pounds a month. The last two months have had loooong plateaus in the middle, so it's been closer to 5 pounds a month.
Well, so maybe upping the calorie allowance slowed the weight loss, even though I've still been exercising at the gym? Or is it just getting that much more difficult for me to lose weight, since my BMR gets lower as I get smaller?
Am I happy with 5 pounds per month? Do I need it to go back to 6 pounds?
Am I happy?
Well... Here's the thing. I am happy I am doing this, as hard as it is. I am not letting myself backslide. I've got eating within range figured out. One of my IRL weight loss buddies struggles with hunger, and that sometimes leads her to overeat, slowing her weight loss.
I hardly ever struggle, because I make it a point to save calories for snacking when I need to, and when I snack I always choose something with some protein.
People who don't "get" that end up feeling hungry a lot. I could eat 100 calories of cracker chips and be hungry (like stomach-rumbling HUNGRY) again in 20 minutes. If I eat 100 calories of baby carrots and hummus dip, I can happily last to my next meal.
I don't eat trigger foods. I have a bag of marshmallows in the house that I am keeping because I want to make rice krispie squares. Many times I have wanted to open the package, just to eat two or three for a snack. I mean, there's gelatin in marshmallows, and that's protein right? Maybe so, but there is no way on this earth I can eat only two or three marshmallows if I have a full, open bag in front of me. So the bag stays closed and out of sight.
I used to have a photo as wallpaper on my phone. It was miniature graffiti from my son's high school. It said:
"Money can't buy happiness, but it can buy marshmallows, which are kinda the same thing."
I get the feeling whoever wrote that wasn't talking about hoarding marshmallows in the back of the cupboard. Anyway, as much as that graffiti rang true for me a year ago, I can say I no longer look to marshmallows for happiness anymore.
I've lost 36 pounds in 6 months and I'm staying on track to lose 36 more in the next 6-8 months.*
Am I happy?
Yes, I think so.
* Just realized that this could mean I am at my journey's halfway point! An exciting milestone.