Thursday, November 29, 2012
As a child I was not allowed to express my feelings. But when I became an adult that all changed. I said I was going to express how I felt. I knew that getting it off my chest was so theraputic for me. I know now that is the right thing to do. In my last blog I wrote I needed someone to listen. Well about 10:30 last night I talked to Dennis on the phone. He's my best bud and we have been through the good the bad and the ugly of life. Sounds like a movie title who'd of thought...........! I was able to tell him how I felt about things in my life. He's such a loving friend and a good listener. It was what I needed at that moment. After I chatted with him I talked with Jesus.........and then I tried to get some sleep. I got some but.................at 3:30 this morning I woke up and haven't been back to sleep yet. I do know somewhere in my today I am going to need a nap. I also know that weight lifting class is going to go on without me today. I believe with being this tired I should not attempt lifting weights and hurtng myself. But that is ok. Because I have a weight room at home and if I get rest today I can go in there and lift for awhile. I could even run on my treadmill if I get the chance..........since we got snow. I do know that my friend Kerry and I have a shopping date. We are getting candy making supplies. This time of year I make peanut brittle, fudge and pepperment bark to give away as Christmas gifts. She is making Almond Roca for her daughter as a gift. I love making candy. I also feel so good about the fact I can make this, give it away and usually only eat 1 or 2 peices of peanut brittle and I am so active I burn it right off. When I think about me sometimes I am so dang proud of myself. In my past if I did not sleep well I would get up, wonder throught the house....eat the last peice of pizza in the fridge....chat at Jesus and go back to bed. Well that has changed so much. Now I chat at Jesus. try to rest and skip eating anything. I've come to learn that food doesn't solve the hurt I feel or fix being so tired. It's all about doing what is best for me. I do know that writing this blog was best for me at this moment........and yes I've already talked to Jesus.