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Oh, poor me...

Thursday, November 29, 2012

So, I weighed myself. I have re-gained 6 (SIX) pounds.

At first, I was totally disgusted with myself. I started all the negative self-talk in my head. You know, "what a fat slob", "you can't do this one simple thing right", "why bother? You'll never be able to do this", "get used to the Plus size department - it's where you belong", etc.

I have been here many times before & my knee-jerk reaction is to just give up, to stop trying, to leave SP & head to Taco Bell, DQ and the candy aisle at WalMart.

This time, though, I really thought about it.
I knew every time I stuck my hand in the candy jar at work & ate some Halloween candy that I would gain weight. When I had 2 helpings of everything on the Thanksgiving table that I would gain weight. When I went into the break room at work and had a taste of everything my co-workers brought in the day after Thanksgiving that I would gain weight. When I ate 4 slices of pizza in one sitting I knew that I would gain weight. Every time I had an extra alcoholic drink over the weekend I KNEW I was packing on the pounds, yet, I did it anyway. No surprise then, when I gained back 6 pounds that it had taken me months to lose.

Again, I thought about it.
My entire plan here at SP is to make the wisest food choice available at the moment. Did I do that? Heck no! Will I continue down the path I have been on the last 2 months? Heck no!

Starting today, starting right now, I will make the wisest food choice that I can, and move forward.

Oh no, I'm not giving up or giving in, this time!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
WATREKKIE 12/1/2012 8:00PM

    I agree with you, it's not the fact that you were less successful than you wanted, but you were aware....and you may make a different choice next time, in one spot or another. It's the ol' getting-back-on-the-horse idea....don't give up, just get started again....

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BLESSEDBEING 11/30/2012 9:00PM

    Compassion and clarity are wonderful tools. When we see the consequences of our choices without judging ourselves, we can simply ask "Is this what I want?" If it isn't, we can make another choice in the future.

It's not about being perfect or never indulging. It's about making better choices more often, and reminding ourselves *often* that we deserve to be healthy, happy, successful, confident and strong. We are the only ones who can change our thoughts and behaviors--and what an emoticon power that is! It sounds like you are ready. emoticon

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ELLFIN3 11/29/2012 10:00AM

    You better not give up!!! I have an idea of where You live and I will hunt You down!! : ) Together We will do this! Spark Folks are the best to help Us get where We need to go! I know I have lost 3 pounds in the last eight weeks and I am now gaining it back! This has to stop! So Let's give Ourselves a kick in the butt and get it done!!! WooHoo for Us!!! I will be watching You!!!!! ((HUGS))

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JENCHRISTOPHER 11/29/2012 8:20AM

    You are so smart and so strong! Thank you so much for posting this! I have been in a particularly low spot lately and reading your honest and inspiring post helped me put it in to perspective this morning. Girl, you are so great! Thank you for sharing this, and for believing in yourself--you can do this!

I hope today is great!

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MAMISHELI53 11/29/2012 8:20AM

We are blessed with every new day, a new beginning.
Praying you lay hold of the grace to choose well! Shel

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AJB121299 11/29/2012 8:19AM

    Knowing is half the battle

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