Death and struggle.
Thursday, November 29, 2012
This last year and half has been so hard. I have lost 5 family members to death. and like 3 friends of the family. The most recent, the 2nd most important person in the world to me, my grandmother. When my mom had to work long hours to support us, my grandmother was there. Teaching me how to garden, to birth baby animals, to quilt, to cook, to take care of a farm and making sure your family is one of the most important people to you. Her death has been the hardest and the one i still cry about and feel panic that she is gone. I am trying to work this.
I have found that i am mindless eating again. Just snacking on this and that. Just cause i am bored or depressed. My sleep schedule is messed up again. The fact that i noticed this, means i am in a better place than i was. I am trying to pick snacks that are good for me. Sometimes they aren't but i am trying. Like tonight, i picked malt-o-meal, with 2 tbsp of peanut butter, and about 1 tsp of brown sugar. It is better than something full of sugar. It has fiber, protein, and good carbs.
I am going food shopping this weekend and with hubby being diabetic we are having to re-arrange our food some to keep his blood sugar in line. So i am gonna try to pick some better foods, wither or not the kids like them or not. The kids need to seriously broaden their food horizons. I have been trying but they fight against me. But it is all for our health.