Thursday, November 29, 2012
Well, I am almost one month into my new way of eating and I'm down 17 pounds. I have stopped calling it a diet and am instead looking at it as a new way of thinking and eating. I truly feel like this time I actually get it. I have always been a heavier girl I believe the smallest size i ever got down to was a size 13. ( I would love to see that size again lol ) It was not until I got married and had my two sons that I slowly crept up the size I am today( 22/24 ) . Of course I have spent countless amounts of money buying ever new dvd , book or whatnot trying to lose weight . A few may have worked for a little while but eventually I just went back to eating the way I always had. Mainly because I was just looking for a quick fix and never tried to educate myself. This time around I am using Sparkpeople to educate myself in every way I can. I'm learning so many wonderful things from every part of this site. For the first time in my life I am actually taking ownership of my addiction to food. I recently had to put my 19 yr old son into rehab, and while I was driving him to the place I had arranged for him, he and I had a chance to really talk ( no drugs getting in the way ) and what he said to me will stay with me. When I told him that I was scared for him and that i wanted him to embrace the program he was about to enter, he told me that he had been scared for year's that I was going to die because I was so big. He went on to tell me that the reason he does not like to eat is because he did not want to get 'big' like me. When I heard my child that I love more then life itself tell you that he has been worried for years that you were going to drop dead of a heart attack because you are so big, you can't ignore that! I made him a promise right then and there that I would do everything I could to over come my addiction to food while he worked on his addiction to drugs and alcohol. Now that I have made that commitment to my son I cannot stop for any reason until I'm healthy .
When it comes to exercise, I have a love hate relationship with it. lol I love it when I'm doing it but it's just the getting started that kills me everytime. lol My youngest son is a senior in high school and has already joined the US ARMy and will leave for bootcamp on June 4 after he graduates. So I am using him to motivate me to get up and get moving! He has to be able to run a 8 min mile so while he is working on that goal I have started going out with him and walking and running. Which I love so much I have decided to start a 6 wk training plan to run a 5 k in Jan. Since I have set a goal for myself I have to do everything I can to make it! This is my first blog I have written so now that I have rambled on and introduced myself to everyone, I'm going to tell ya'll that i'm going to need alot of help to keep me strong! Talk to ya later