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Feeling Good about Doing Good


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

I came to a realization today. That realization is that it feels really *awesome* to do healthy good things for myself. This came to me while I was looking at myself in the mirror after a particularly intense Zumba class this morning. I was washing my hands and looked at myself in the mirror. My face was tomato red. I was sweaty and a little warm. I FELT FANTASTIC. Before, when I would look in the mirror and see my face red and feeling a little warm and a little sweaty it was because I had just downed a couple of double shots of tequila. Usually the good stuff of course. Well, you know, it is much more satisfying when your face is red from good old exercise and not booze. It has not been over 3 months and I have not had a sip of the stuff. Can I say I don't miss it? No, I can't 100 percent say that. Not now, maybe not ever. Will I say that I will NEVER drink again. I can't say that either. I am taking one day at a time. I can say that I know I was drinking too much because of my depression. I can say it was causing problems with my health and relationships. I can say that I feel a lot better without it. I have gone through social situations, my birthday, my friend's birthday and Thanksgiving without imbibing. I really think I can get through the Holidays without it. In fact I seem to be enjoying things a lot more without it. I focus more on the actual experience of the fun and not when the next drink will come from.

At the store I found a real *SCORE*. Mind you I have not tasted it yet, but it sounds delish. It is BIGALOW Eggnog TEA. mmm, yum!! I can't wait to maybe light a fire, make the tea and relax by the Christmas tree. It sounds so pleasant and so GOOD for ME.

Thank you LORD for giving me back ME again and reminding me I am good.
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L1ZB3TH354 11/30/2012 9:07AM

    Yay! You are doing it! Keep up the great work!

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KELLY122581 11/30/2012 6:26AM

    Yay! This reminds me of the SP motivational picture that says something like "nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels" or similar.... I always remind myself of that when I want to eat or drink something horrible for me..... because, you are right! doing good things for yourself is ultimately way more satisfying than the temporary instant gratification of tequilla or fries :-)

I am very proud of you for recognizing an unhealthy relationship with alcohol as it related to your depression and making such AWESOME steps to correct that!

Going through ALL of those tempting situations without alcohol is cause for a huge celebration! Go treat yourself to some Zumba, enjoy your red face, and revel in the fact that you have proven that you are stronger than your strongest vices..... you rock!!!!!!!

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PEBBLES706 11/29/2012 9:34PM

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BOBOBOBBI 11/28/2012 9:50PM

    Not a fan of eggnog, but that does sound yummy!!

Sounds like you are doing amazing and have SO MUCH to be PROUD of!!!

Best of luck on your journey!!

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