I am overcoming self doubt.
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
I once heard Dr. Phil say that past behavior is a good predictor of future behavior. I thought I agreed with him. I think it can be. Sometimes that helps us make choices. But, I also believe in the ability to change. We do not spend our whole lives acting like we did when we were 2 or 12 or 20 or 30. I am 46 now and I hope I will look back at this and realize all that I have learned when I am 80 or 90 or maybe REALLY old. .
I currently weigh about 80 pounds or so less than my highest weight. I have weighted less than I do right now. I have gained a bit more than this too. But I have never regained to my highest. I have been using the statement by Dr. Phil to beat myself up. I say mean things like I can never hope to change. I really let myself doubt that i can make it to my biggest goal weight. I would love to have a normal BMI. I am good at looking about 20 pounds into the future. I get there and I creep back to where I am now. Then I do things right and get lower and creep back up a bit.
I beat myself up over this and sometimes reaffirm the belief that I cannot succeed. Today I realized that many people that have lost weight have regained the weight lost and more. I have regained at times but not the "and more" I am well under my highest.
Also if somehow I am going to veer off the path I at some point have to get back on. I continue to get back on and work towards my goals. I may be taking a long time to get to the goal. But, I am still moving forward. I might want to move faster to the goal. But, I will not accomplish anything bhy beating myself up for not moving faster already.
So I am reaffirming with this blog my commitment to staying on the trail. I decided I need a reminder affirmation. I have been a scout leader and love the scout oath. So my "mantra" will be "On my honor I promise myself that I will make the best choices for my health today."
That helps me to realize that I only have to step for today and I only have to be concerned with today. I cannot lose big in one day. But that is not the point. I hope that this will help me to enjoy the journey.