Today is day 273 of my on track streak!
Confession time...I am feeling overwhelmed and a little embarrassed. I'm so afraid of letting people down, and I have been putting so much pressure on myself.
As many of my Sparkfriends know, I started this streak on March 1st, and I stayed off the scale for months. My streak has been about getting healthy, with weight loss as a bonus. I have been eating between 1200 to 1500 calories a day, and also working out every day. Staying off the scale was the best thing I ever did, because it allowed me to not worry too much about numbers. Focusing solely on my heath has helped me to stay on track, because I could see progress almost every day.
When I started my streak, I could barely get through a 15 minute workout! I would be so exhausted, and I'd be covered in sweat...but I felt so good and so proud of myself! I would tell myself "I did it...and now I know I can do it again tomorrow." And as the days and weeks passed, I got stronger and better. My endurance increased, and I was able to add to my fitness minutes. When I weighed myself on September 3rd, I'd lost 71 lbs! But more importantly, I was healthier than I'd been in years, and fitter too. It felt great!
I've had so much support and encouragement from my Sparkfriends, and it has meant the world to me. It has helped me to stay strong and to keep going. But....there is pressure too. I sometimes feel like I'm just not doing well enough. You see, I've been at a plateau for a couple of months now. I am still on track...still eating right, and still exercising. I'm drinking my water. I'm staying active throughout the day. I am switching up my exercise routine every two weeks. I'm not weighing myself, but I can just tell that I have not lost much weight since September.
I'm not discouraged, though. I know that plateau's happen, and I'm willing to keep on working even though I am not feeling like I'm losing weight. After all, I am still making progress. I am still getting healthy, and getting healthy is what my streak is all about. I have NSV's (non-scale victories) fairly often, and I celebrate them. When I am able to do one more pushup than I could before...when I am able to hold a difficult yoga pose longer....when I am able to walk long distances without becoming completely exhausted...when I have more energy and stamina than I did before...I KNOW I am making progress. Even if the weight loss has stopped for now, I know I am healthier than I was this time last year.
But I worry that I will disappoint people. I have said that I will weigh myself again on New Years day, but I sure hope no one will think I'm some kind of fraud if I haven't lost a huge amount of weight by then. I don't want to let anyone down. Sometimes I feel like running away and hiding!
Well, I feel better now that I've gotten that off my chest! I am not at all discouraged that the weight doesn't seem to be coming off because I know that if I just keep going, it will happen eventually. And I know that I am healthy, and that this has truly become a lifestyle for me. I don't want to ever go back to my old ways...eating tons of junk, and sitting around all day. That way was just leading me to the grave. I love my new lifestyle! I feel so much better now, and I will never stop being amazed by that.
So when I weigh in on New Years day, I am going to be happy no matter what the scale says. I just hope no one is disappointed in me.